I Thought You Were My Friend

Didn't think you would leave

Didn't know you'd fall apart

I always wanted you to stay

And never break my heart

You were my very best friend

You were in my very heart

You were the one I could turn to

I thought you were from the start



Lost is the Night

Hour after hour, this lonely night,

I turned the leaves of poetry

And watched the driftwood in the fire,

And sought to bring you close to me;

Hour after hour, I read and watched

The pale moon riding down the sky

And filled my heart with written words,

As fragile, transient as a sigh...

Lost is the night; our song was not

In all the beauty that I read...

Lost is the night; the deepest love

Remains forever unsung... unsaid...

Leaf Fall

An Autumn past, we walked this hill;

Then, swiftly, you were gone

Beyond my touch, beyond my sight -

Intangible as dawn.

Again, the maple that you loved

Has lost her crimson gown;

I stood, and knew that maple well

As her last leaf went down...

I Remember

I remember Beauty.

This is all I know;

Icicles of moonlight

Against the blue of snow;

Wind walking through the marsh grass;

Black trees against the sky;

The keening of the winter sea;

A loon's thin twilight cry;

I remember what was real

And all I know was true;

I remember Beauty -

I have forgotten - you.

Guardian Angel

She stands proud, true, steadfast and tall,

She's here to guide and protect us all.

She was sent with God's overwhelming love,

With wings silent, soft and white as a dove.

She's the guardian of children,

the keeper of peace,

The light of hope,

And song of grace.

She'll be with us foever more,

What more can we ask for?

With our Angel watching us where ever we may be,

She'll always be there to help us see.

Forgetting

There are so many things that fill my days;

Friends that I had neglected have returned;

I do not have to walk familiar ways -

Life hurries one's feet onward, I have learned.

If my heart wished, there is no time to go

Back to the hill that knew my farewell tears;

The maple tree is shrouded now in snow;

Days turn to seasons; seasons turn to years.

Each day is a bright challenge that I meet;

And yet, sometimes at night, whe all is still,

My eyes grow blind with tears; my trembling feet

Take once again the path up to the hill...

Equinox

She scoffed at love, who wished so to believe,

Sometimes, she'd take her heart down from its shelf

To briefly wear it on her cynic sleeve -

But, knowing that she could not give herself,

Her heart was never given, simply lent

To others for awhile (for hope dies hard).

It stayed intact, without the slightest dent,

(Though hearts are fragile); Ever on her guard,

She would not hesitate to snatch it back

If one small threat should sound a shrill alert;

Within her fortress, safe for all attack,

She sometimes wept that she could not be hurt.

Love came. The walls came down. She laughed; she cried,

And walked with Gods until the day she died.

Down Where the Roses

Above my head, the seasons slowly pass -

The winds of Autumn whistle past my door;

The pale gold leaves of poplar gild the grass;

The snows of Winter fall, just as before...

Above my head, the seasons slowly pass;

No more, of April, do the quick tears start -

Down where the roses have their dark beginnings,

You lie, that were all sunlight to my heart...

Crazed

I will not say you broke my heart

For it is whole and not apart...

It is but crazed and webbed with lines,

Like some old mirror on the wall,

Not giving a reflection back,

Nor any light at all...

I Love You...

I love you with everything that I am

You have saved my life and given me hope

You bring out the best in me

And because of you I am able to cope

I love you with my heart and my soul

You complete me and make me feel alive

I couldn't ask for a better love

You give me my heart, you give me my drive

I love you Gao... and I always will

Because of you I am who I have always wanted to be

You helped heal me when I thought it wasn't possible

You have given me your love and helped me to see

Him

It's not the same when I'm not talking to him

He has shown me I am worthy of love and more

He tells me everyday how much he loves me

And I can feel his love deep down in my core

I often wonder what would happen if not for him

Without him in my life I would be so lost

He's changed me for the better and given me my life

I would do anything for him no matter what the cost

I will always love him forever more

He's deep in my soul, deep in my heart

I'll never be the same if he should leave

I don't want to find a brand new start

He is my whole world, he's my everything

He has stolen my heart and given me his

I could never love another like I do him

This feeling I have is real and it's him I miss

Write For You

When I have nothing to do

I sit at my computer and write poetry for you

I'll sit here and write day after day

Especially when I have so much I want to say

My words just come to me in my rhyme

Words of love, of happiness, of life and of time

I think about you as I write this thing

Just writing them makes my heart sing

So here I am once again...

I write my poetry with no paper and pen

Abyss

Falling in the deep dark abyss

Surrounded by the night

Shadows come to take my soul

Will I ever see the light?

I'm lost in this dark world

Wandering around as if blind

Looking for my one love

Knowing he is always kind

Falling, but I know he'll save me

Surrounded by darkness, but he's there

He takes me in his arms to protect me

That is how I know he does care

"Who Are You?"

"Who are you?" she asks

"I am she that walks the sea" I say

"When will you stop?" she asks

"Never" I spoke to her as I walked away

She scoffed at me for who I am

She looked at me with such hate

But I'll never change myself for anyone

Because if I did then it would be too late

"Who are you?" she asks

"I am me, who are you?" I said

"You are nothing, I am everything" she says

"No, I am me. I will never be you" I replied wishing I was dead

Her words ring in my head

Often I wonder who am I? But I know

I am she that walks the sea, I am she who loves

I will live my life the way I want. I am not a lie or a laugh-show!



Do You See Me?

I walk this world a ghost today

Often wondering what happened to make me this way

Do you see me or do you not?

What happened to my life? Why am I shot?

I'm invisible to all love and life

I wonder if this is why there is no more strife

Do you see me or do you not?

I don't feel any cold, I don't even feel hot

I've lost all perspective of my life gone too soon

When will I be alive again? Tomorrow at noon?

I ask one final time before it's too late

Do you see me or is this what they call fate?

I Miss You

You're always there on my mind

I miss you more each day

I wish for you to be happy and healthy

I don't know what else I could say

I'm sitting here thinking about you

I can't help but cry knowing you're not well

Please, I need you to wake up

There's so much that I want to tell

I love you more and more each day

I can't imagine my life without you

If I lost you now I'm afraid I would die

I don't know what else I can do

Gao, I'm praying you get better

I pray you'll wake up very soon

I can't stand the thought of you like this

So I'll pray for you from night to noon

I miss you so much Gao

You're my dream come true

I'll always love you no matter what

But knowing you're sick makes me feel blue

Please please wake up soon

Please open up those dreamy brown eyes

Let me know you're safe and sound

So I can be rid of all these tears I cry

Stark Cold White Walls

Stark cold white walls...

The stench of death in the air.

I just want to go home,

Where I know everyone cares.

Room so bitter cold...

It's like winter has come.

Where is the life and light?

Where is the laughter and fun?

Stark cold white walls,

Frenzy is all around.

I know I'll be home soon,

Where I'll be safe and sound.

God, protect me please,

Keep me in your Grace.

Allow me time to heal...

So I can get out of this place!

Are You Gao?

Are you my Knight in Shining Armor?

Are you my Dark Prince?

Are you the one that loves me?

And will love me without a second glimpse?

Are you the one that's meant for me?

Are you the one that I call my love?

Are you my one and only?

Will you set me free like a dove?

Are you my Dark Angel?

The one who will always be here?

Are you my sweet Gao?

The one that will always care?

Your Light

A star shines so bright

Way up in the sky

It's there for you to wish upon

Without asking for a reason why

A star shines so bright

For you to gaze upon tonight

Make your wish and think of me

I will always be your Light

I Feel...

I feel alone...

Lost and so cold

Like I'm dying inside

With everything untold

I feel dead...

Lonely and sad

Nothing left in me

But feeling so bad

I feel unloved...

Gone and left for dead

Never to be the same

And nothing to be said

I feel hopeless...

With pain, I could die

So empty inside me

Except the tears I cry

If You Can Have Peace

If you can see the sun shining,

And listen to the birds chirping,

Seize that harmony of Nature

For it can bring peace to all...

If you can face life with bliss

And cause another to smile,

Enjoying it as a blessed while

For it can bring you peace.

If you can take a sweet word

To those hearts in grievance,

That's peace you're breathing

Helping them with a better living.

If you can avoid troops on the ground,

Deployed for months, years, harshly,

You can feel your country healthy

And people in peace producing more around...

My Everything

I've met you

But I haven't met you

I know you

But I don't know you

Yet you are...

My dream come true

You are...

My everything

Love is There

Sometimes

Lips are sealed

Tongue is tied

Sometimes

Hands can't reach

The feelings are locked

Into these eyes

Read the words unsaid

The feelings not laid

Plunge deeply into my heart

Everytime

Love is there

Love is there...

Remembering (Haiku)

Lovers come and go

Walking the lanes together

Hand in hand they go

Watching lovers pass

Makes me remember the loss

My love I let go

Remembering love

Memories will stay with me

I'll hold on to that

Be You (Haiku)

Strong with who you are

Brave to face the world today

Courage under fire

Never change yourself

Believe in who you must be

And always share you

Invisible (Haiku)

Look deep in my soul.

What do you see standing here?

Am I here at all?

2 Haikus on Time

Time for a time out

Time to think about my life

Time to take a break

~*~

Time is against me

Time just ticks away our life

Just ticking away

The View from my Window

The view from my window

When I'm all alone

Is one of great beauty

That I have not known

I see the trees and the hills

I see the clouds in the sky

At night I see the moon and stars

Such beauty that it can't possibly be a lie

I watch the world pass by each day

Just by looking out my window view

And often it inspires me to poetry

And paint such beauty that's always new

The view from my window

Is never the same

But it reminds me of my life

I don't need fortune or fame

Time Runs Me By

Time runs me by like sea-bourne winds;

I grieve I cannot stay

The moon that slims against the night,

Quicksilver days of May;

The candle, gutted to its end,

That once stood, proud and tall;

The leaf that blows, the rose that spills

Her petals by the wall...

Love runs me by like sea-bourne winds -

Our hours turn and go

As swiftly as the April sun

Devours the spindrift snow.

Would that my lips might hold your kiss

As like thy whispered name;

Would that the passing wind of time

Might spare our candle flame

For mine, the heart that marks its span

By feathered moons that wane,

And, by one petal blown, is honed

To razored edge of pain...

Ghost (Haiku)

I am just a ghost
Buried six feet under, dead
Never to feel love

I haunt you today

Just a memory long gone
Always in your heart

Haiku on Peace

My wish is for peace

No more drama or hatred

Peace for everyone

My dream is for peace

Haters and players be gone

Love and peace today

Haiku on Death

Am I even here?

Are you able to see me?

Did I die today?

Am I unseen now?

I'm invisible to all.

Gone forever more!

Haiku on Love

I love all of you

You will always be my friends

In my heart always

I love all of you

My friends and my family

Forever my heart

I love all of you

Am I in your hearts also?

Will you love me too?

Via Con Dios

No one knew I loved you;

No one knew at all.

Winters slipped to Springtime;

Summers slipped to Fall.

Seasons slipped away to years

While my love stayed true;

When you broke my heart at last,

No one ever knew.

I need never tell a soul

That you did not care.

I need never say your name...

Only in a prayer...

Persephone's Gift

Seeing the earth wake up once more,

Dreaming of brighter days filled with sun,

Feeling the beauty straight through to the core,

Yes, this is the time, the spring has begun.

The small pink buds on the new cherry trees,

The silver horizon and babbling brook,

The looming mountains and gently blowing breeze,

I couldn't see it all in the first gaze that I took.

While the icy cold winter is a dark greenish black,

And cabin fever, mud, and slush have arrived,

The season has come; there is no looking back,

The world without it cannot be contrived.

Now all of the little signs will appear,

And we know that Persephone was good to us this year.

Teach Me To Write

Teach me to write

And you give me a seed

I will plant

And smiles and tears nourish.

I will cultivate, weed, and till.

I will harvest the rich fruits

Who bring new seeds,

And I will plant

Year after year

for eternity.

Teach me to write

And you will open my soul.

I will share my dreams

And you will add color to them.

I will let the world adapt them to its harshness.

I will show my heart

To those who feel,

And they will understand

Who I am.

Teach me to write

And you give me a mirror

I will see

And feel and sense.

I will seek deeper, farther, harder.

I will find the secret identity

Within myself,

And I will know

Who I am.

Teach me to write

And you give me a candle

I will lift

And subdue the shadows.

I will carry, reveal, and spark.

I will illumine the world

With light,

And they will realize

The beauty

Of the earth.

Teach me to write

And you give me an echo.

I will speak

And deep and lovely thoughts bare.

I will be heard and touch hearts.

I will make a difference

To someone

And tomorrow, in years,

Leave an imprint,

A cry across time

To endure

for eternity.

Love's Comfort

You buried my shame in the depth of the sea
And cast my fears to the bed of the ocean.
You carried my hopes to the end of the earth
And enriched my pride with the fruits of love.

As far as the east is from the west,
You removed past guilt from my mind.
As far as the heaven is from the earth,
You sever shame from the contents of my thoughts.

As you build up my faith, mountain high,
You deeply warm my heart with a wondrous smile.
And now, being crowned in the comfort of your love,
You make me rollick in the safety of your arms.

Healing Light

The healing touch

I pray for you

To be whole

And better than new

To be as you were

All laughter and light

To be free of pain

That is what's right

I prayed for you

Day and Night

I'll keep praying

For the healing light

When You Love

When you love someone

All your wishes come true

You feel light as a feather

And so brand new

You'll never have a want

And you'll never have a need

Everything is better

When love is the seed

When you're in love

Life is so much better

Feelings are shared

Even through a poem or letter

Everyone's Songs

There's a song in your heart
That'll set you apart

It's what makes you who you are
And it'll help you go far

Don't allow the song to go dim
Or allow it to get grim

Just keep this song forever more
I'll help you when things get sore

Everyone's song isn't the same
No need to be looking for fame

Our songs are the melody we hear
When we think nobody is near

My song is a melody of love
I will set it free on the wings of a dove

Other's songs can be angry or sad
But don't worry that doesn't make them bad

There's a song in your heart
That's where your soul does start

Under the Same Sky

As I watch the great night sky

I'm thinking about how great things are

We're all under this same sky together

No matter if you're near or far...

It's amazing when you think about it

How on this great Earth we're all one

Somehow we're all connected to each other

And we all sit under the same warm sun

We all walk under the same sun and same stars

We all live on this same planet and we should care

For without one another, what good are we

If we don't have a heart then how can we share?

I, The Cat

I cannot tell a lie, it was the dog

At the time of the offence I was up a tree

The missing item from the kitchen table

Well, it certainly is not inside of me!

That dog just looks dumb and stupid

And I think I would have to agree

But I take pity on him, he's just a mongral

Not like me, a fine feline and a pedigree.  

The Gold Fish's Life

Two green beady eyes are looking at me

They belong to the big fat yellow cat

He's thinking about having me for his tea

But he can't and that is a fact!

In my tank I look back at him with ease

I blow bubbles in his face, swish my tail,

And I'll laugh at him and have a tease

Until he tries to stick his paw in my tank! 

Metaphor

My brain transmits signals

down through the nerves

into all my fingers

so I can type words.

But every now and then

in me they go to ground

my fingers are numb

and control leaves town.

I don't see a train coming

it's late and I can tell

the signals are dodgy

and my typing is hell! 

Burning Candle

Burning candle,

I see you cry

Tear drops flow,

From flame's eye

Soft molten streams,

Leave a trace

Romantic shadows,

No longer embrace. 

Why Am I Still Here?

Broken mirrors all around

fractured pain without a sound

looking for the answers now

can't find them in here...

Hall of mirrors shards of glass

just reflect the broken past

images of my broken dreams

why am I still here?

Damaged goods, yes, now I see

didn't realize you were in me

abused beyond reality

broken forever I fear...

Living now is just a dream

lost in misty tears I scream

why oh why, could I not see

why am I still here?

I am Light

I rise with the same speed I set,

With kind intent

I cause darkness to flee,

For he has no place in me.

As sure as I rise, I bring life,

You can see all with me

I do not hide things, 

All things are revealed for you to see.

When I set, I give permission,

To the darkness to fall

And he comes, I go with kind intent

I go to come again for all...

I Seek Answers

I search for answers that I can't find

I seek here and I seek there

I can never find what I'm looking for

But I'll continue to search everywhere

One day the answers will come to me

When I least expect it of this I am sure

I hope when the answers come

They'll be what I seek or my very cure

I hope and pray for the answers

I hope and pray this very day

Somehow, I know it'll come to me

Of this I know and I pray...