I Look at Your Pictures

I look at your pictures when we're not near
And I fall more in love each time
I can't think of the words to say
Or how I will make them rhyme

I often find myself daydreaming
Picture ourselves close together
I want nothing more than to make you happy
Hopefully we will be always be with each other

Sometimes I find myself wondering about things
And I think that this is nothing more than a dream
You are more than I have ever imagined
And I'm glad our love is more than it does seem

I look at your pictures every single day
And I'm in awe that you are all mine
I can't express in words how much I love you
But I will love you for all time!

Back to Reality

Take me back to reality
Where I know my love is free
Take me back to reality
Where I know you'll be there for me
Take me back to reality
Where it's only you that I see
Take me back to reality
Where I'm able to always be

Don't Tell Me

Don't tell me how to live my life
Don't tell me who I'm supposed to be
Don't tell me what religion I should follow
Don't tell me that I am not me!

Leave me alone if you're going to hate
Leave me alone if you're going to lie
Leave me alone if you're going to be rude
Leave me alone and stop telling me to die!

Will I Remember?

Will I remember yesterday today?
Or will I forget once asleep in a daze?
Will I remember your words of love?
Or will it suddenly be gone in a haze?

Will I remember the things we've said?
Or will I forget the things we've done?
Will I remember your arms around me?
Or will my world finally come undone?

Mirror Mirror Don't Lie to Me...

Mirror Mirror

Don't lie to me

Tell me the truth

What do you see?

Do you see me?

Or do you not?

You answered me once

But I have forgot

Mirror Mirror

Please tell me true

Am I pretty or am I not?

Am I what you always knew?

Burn the Bridges

Burn the bridges of your past
Don't hate, don't make it last

Forgive and forget, forget and forgive
Try to move on so you can just live

Burn those bridges and never look back
Gain the life that you have always did lack

Walk away from all the hate and greed
Try to show love, it's starts with one little seed

Show others that you you will always care
And by example they might also share

So burn those bridges to the past
And make the future something that'll last!

Give Yourself

There are loyal hearts, there are spirits brave,
There are souls that are pure and true,
Then give the world the best you have,
And the best will come back to you.

Give love, and love to your life will flow,
A strength in your utmost need,
Have faith, and a score of hearts will show
Their faith in your word and deed.

Give truth, and your gift will be paid in kind;
And honor will honor meet;
And a smile that is sweet will surely find
A smile that is just as sweet.

Give pity and sorrow to those who mourn,
You will gather in flowers again
The scattered seeds from your thoughts out-borne,
Though the sowing seemed but vain.

For life is the mirror of king and slave,
'Tis just what we are and do;
Then give to the world the best you have,
And the best will come back to you.

Somewhere

Somewhere the Night
Is still and quiet
Somewhere the Dreamer
Dreams

Somewhere the Moon
Shines big and bright
Somewhere, not here it
Seems

Somewhere there's Peace,
Tranquility
Somewhere the heart beats
True

Somewhere is where I
Ought to be
Somewhere, right there with
You

Somewhere the Night
Is fraught with care
Somewhere you cry for
Me

Somewhere you'll fall
And I'll be there
Somewhere is where I'll
Be

Friendships

Well my friend, another night has come to pass.
Without your words and smiles that last.

Quite the unfamiliar evening.
With the absence of fun and empty dreaming.

I've enjoyed your songs and your posts.
But your short messages I've liked the most.

At times I think my addictions a mess.
Then I realize that I am blessed!

A friendship that once in a lifetime you'll find.
Tonight my friend you will be on my mind.

No Title Yet

A time of year
To think of Love and sharing
A time of Peace
For the whole world to cherish
A time to be with all your friends and family
And wish them all
A Merry Christmas

Making angels in the snow
or sliding down a hill
roasting chestnuts on the fire
takes away the chill
Candy canes and mistletoe
and grandmother's home made pie
Ginger bread and hot cocoa
You know it’s Christmas time

Seasons come and seasons pass
but we still remember
the joy we shared on Christmas last
looking forward to next December
Flowers bloom, then pumpkins grow,
then suddenly it starts to snow.
Then our hearts are young again
You know it’s Christmas time.

On Christmas eve
Santa will soon be coming
with lots of toys
for girls and boys to play with.
To see their eyes sparkle like stars above
is all we need for a Merry Christmas....
So live your life with kindness and love in your heart
and you’ll always have a Merry Christmas.

True Meaning of Christmas

In today's day and time,
it's easy to lose sight,
of the true meaning of Christmas
and one special night.

When we go shopping,
We say "How much will it cost?"
Then the true meaning of Christmas,
Somehow becomes lost.

Amidst the tinsel and glitter
And ribbons of gold,
We forget about the child,
born on a night so cold.

The children look for Santa
In his big, red sleigh
Never thinking of the child
Whose bed was made of hay.

In reality,
When we look into the night sky,
We don't see a sleigh
But a star, burning bright and high.

A faithful reminder,
Of that night so long ago,
And of the child we call Jesus,
Whose love, the world would know.

Last Present

There is one last present under the Christmas tree,
I wonder whose it is?
Is it for the little girl with the rocking horse,
Or is it for Grandmother or Aunt Liz?
It looks so lonely,
Sitting there by itself;
It’d certainly be an awesome addition
On "somebody's" shelf.

The ribbon is gold,
The paper is paisley red;
“Who does it belong to?”
Keeps rattling in my head;
I decided to snatch a peek,
And see whose name is on the card;
It’d only take a second,
It won’t be very hard.

  When no one was looking,
I reached under the tree,
Carefully handling the package,
“Who knows, it may be for me!”
But when I read the card,
I thought it was extraordinarily odd,
Because the message read,
“Love and blessings,” God.

Moonlight

Enthralling moon's orb dazzles up in the night sky
Whole sky is lit up by the splendor of the moonlight
Autumn breeze slightly whispers a mellow serenade
Misty dew drops fall from the sky sprinkling over fields
Dainty and delicate are the night blooming flowers
They appear like sparkling flames of candles in the dark
An awakened owl sitting on a branch basking moonlight
While people dream in these solemn hours of the night
Gentle moon and twinkling stars are unseen during daylight
Their blissful beauty is admired by many keen onlookers
Brightness of supreme sunlight gives life in this world
Moonlight brings sweetness of romance to the lovers
Stars enable to generate wishful thoughts in the mind
Leading the lovers on the way to precious love's desire.

There is Magic in Me

There is magic in me
With just my touch
There is magic in me
You know I love you so much!

There is magic in how I talk
There is magic in how I walk

There is magic in me
With how I sway my hips
There is magic in me
With how I kiss your lips

There is magic in how I look
There is magic in how you took!

Fairies Everywhere

Fairies all around us
Put magic in the air
To help us with our daily lives
And let us know they care.

Fairies in the garden
Color the flowers bright
To make our days more happy
And sweeten up our nights.

Fairies in the shadows
Touch us though unseen
With tender loving little hands
And hearts oh so serene.

Thinking of Fairies

I think of fairies all day long,
I see them dance, I hear their song.
I dream of fairies in the night,
I watch them vanish with morning light.
I long to be a fairy queen,
I'd have flowing hair and wings that gleam.

Lovely

What do you look like?
Do you look like me?
I have eyes that sparkle
And a dimpled knee.

There's a touch of freckles
Upon my nose,
On my feet I have
Such sweet little toes!

With a body slender,
Skin soft as dew,
Please tell me that
I look like you!

Will You?

Will you miss me if I die tomorrow?
Will you stand at my grave and weep?
Will you tell me how much you love me?
Will you always say it's me you want to keep?

Will you remember me tomorrow?
Will you remember me the next day too?
Will you remember me always?
Will you remember me like you always do?

Will you say my name with love on your lips?
Will you tell people about the person I was?
Will you visit my grave on a daily basis?
Will you just sit there just because?

You Are Gold

Don't listen to the lies he's told
You are worth more than gold

Don't allow him to put you down
He only wants to hurt you and make you frown

Hold you head high and say "I am Gold!"
"I'm worth more than what he has told!"

Just dump his ass and spit in his face
He doesn't belong in this place!

He's nothing but a piece of shit!
You know you're worth more than IT!

You are beautiful don't let him tell you lies
He only wants to hurt you so you'll cry!

You are worth so much more than him
He's only using you for his whim!

Please think before you settle for the worst!
Think of yourself, you should always be first!

Smile

It doesn't take much, just smile
Try to show the happiness once in awhile

Be happy with the person that you are
And that smile you give will get you far

Don't think about the bad things in life
Sometimes a smile can help get rid of all the strife

Show someone how much you care
With that smile you're willing to share

Don't fake a smile, that won't get you anywhere
Just be happy and show others you'll always be here!

So don't forget to smile and mean it!
It's better than being full of shit!

Worn Out

Worn out... from deep within
I can't cope with all of this again

I'm too tired to even try
So why pretend? Why lie?

Should I care about you all?
Who is there whenever I call?

Tired of all the damn crap
Some people need a good slap!

People come and people go
Some will wither and some will grow

Should I care what tomorrow brings?
Especially with the drama queens and kings!

Worn out... too tired to even care
Why would anyone bother to share?

Sometimes...

Sometimes, even though I'm surrounded by love
I feel so very alone
Sometimes, even though I'm awake
I feel like I'm asleep
Sometimes, even though I know it's real
I feel like it's all been a dream
Sometimes, even though I am happy
I feel like I'm dying inside
Sometimes, even though I want everyone to be happy
I feel like I am selfish

Sometimes, even though I am alive
I feel like I should be dead
Sometimes, even though I act like I have the answer
I feel like I just want someone to help me
Sometimes, even though others say I'm pretty
I feel like I'm more hideous than ever
Sometimes, even though I have tried
I feel like just giving up

Sometimes... I just don't know anymore

In Just One Kiss

Antagonizing pleasure

Placed upon my lips

Where dreams come true

In just one kiss

Sharing an afternoon of ecstasy

Closing the door on reality

Not even the thickest iceberg

Could melt the lust I feel inside

I shed my fears faster than my clothes

The anticipation begins to unfold

My heart begins to pound faster

As you come closer so bold

Just one look from your eyes

And I become hypnotized

A river of sins, to which I concede

Just one kiss, caused the undoing of me

Your lips gently pressed against mine

A silent submission of tongues intertwined

My mouth tenderly pressed against yours

My voice trembles as you start to explore

Electric shocks as your tongue touches mine

An erotic dance of passing slowly in time

My heart's racing as fast as yours

My body's craving for something more

Starving and Craving

For an evening

Of erotic bliss

Where dreams come true

In Just One Kiss

First Time

Hot breaths on tender lips

Kisses given and taken in little sips

Finger tips searing to the touch on milky white skin

Giving in to their erotic passions from within.

Moving with such ease and grace

One kiss on her neck, another on her face

With each nibble on her ear soft sighs begin

In the dark he plans his moves with a satisfied evil grin.

He moves with the stealth of a panther in the night

Breathing becomes shallow as two souls take flight

His teasing lips kiss forbidden places methodically

Sending her to a special zone hypnotically.

Watching the rise and fall of lily white breasts

Kissing her hard, he holds her close riding the crest.

All through the night he tantalizes her senses

With his lips and tongue, he pulls down her defenses

Soft whimpering moans escape from quivering pink lips

As fingertips gently brush against small pale hips

Again and again, all through the night he takes her to the edge of abyss

Then spent, he lets her sleep with one last kiss.

Lust and Desire

I tell Draven to please make love to me

he whispers in my ear

"Oh I am going to do much more"

he touches me all over with the

love of his strong hands

I can see it in his eyes

tonight is going to be filled

with lust and desire

he starts nibbling on my neck and

kisses me harder

he grabs me and pulls me down

popping every button one by one

on my purple shirt

we kissed, licked and nibbled

on every inch of each others

hot steamy bodies

we shivered , we scream

as our lust rushes though

our bodies

Oh his love made my heart beat faster

as it never did before just his touch

alone brings my body on the edge of desire

he knew just what I needed

from head to toe

I want it again and again never stop

fill my body with lust and desire

Let Love Begin

Take my hand and lead the way;
tell me all you want to say.
Whisper softly in my ear,

all those things I want to hear.
Kiss my lips and touch my skin;
bring out passions deep within.
Pull me close and hold me near;
In the darkness of the night,
be my beacon, shine your light.
In the brightness of the sun,
show me that you are the one.
Give me wings so I can fly;
for I can soar when you're nearby.
Enter my heart, break down the wall,
it's time for me to watch it fall.
I've been a prisoner, can't you see?
Break my chains and set me free.
Strip me of my shield so tight;
you'll find I won't put up a fight.
Release my soul held deep within . . .
I'm ready now, let love begin.

Nitro

You taste like lemon drops
with a sherbet center
that tingles on my tongue

as it seeps from its shell

Dynamite wrapped
waiting for me to light the fuse
with a slow burn and steady hand
until I coat your candle in my nitro mix

I am a pure violet breath
kissed on the nape of your submission
along the the ridge of your hoping
and down into the passage of your longing

Selling you hand and mouth candy
for the price of a slow tongue exploration
and a ride on your muscle bound need
that has my name licked all over it

Then you told me I was beautiful
I licked my lips and fell in love with you
showing you in the sway of my hips
and the swallowing of your pride

I smothered you in my nitro mix
lit the fuse that burned to my core
you exploded into my liquid center
setting my whole being on fire

As You Tease Me

As I lay naked beneath the sheets
You lay next to me and do wonders
Your fingers travel down as my back arches
Then you smile as you silently plunder

You keep teasing me with your fingers
You know full well what you're doing to me
I scream out your name with and orgasm
That's when you really set me free

You keep going but this time with your lips
Your tongue does it's magic as I arch for more
You tell me I taste like heaven as you continue
Then finally you enter me but different than before

You plunge deep inside me as I scratch your back
You say my name and tell me wonderful things
Then finally we both explode in unison
Becoming one with you makes my heart sing!

Did You Think?

Did you think when you called her a fake?
Did you think when you laughed in her face?
Did you think when you called her names?
Did you think when she cried and wanted out of this place?

You never once thought of her feelings...
But now all that is happening to you!
You're crying your little "boo hoos" and complaining
Karma finally got you back... you know it's true!

Next time think before you call others names!
Try putting yourself in their shoes and just think!
We all know you have a brain in that head of yours,
So think next time instead of causing such a stink!

When I'm Not With You

When I'm not with you
I feel I am ripped in two
Nothing else matters
Except to just be one with you!

When I'm not with you
My world fades away
Seems all light is gone
Except when you're here to stay!

When I'm not with you
I can't be just me
I'm lost and alone
Except when you set my heart free!

It's Good to be Mad

It’s good to be mad,
It’s nice to escape,
Drink tea with a Martian,

Eat Lillybob flakes.

It’s fun being mad,
Being classed as a nutter,
You can shout in the street,
And steal peanutbutter.

Being quite mad,
You can do as you please,
Sit in the parks,
And talk to the trees.

It’s great being mad,
Be completely insane,
You could be someone else,
That no one can blame.

When you are mad,
You are never alone,
‘Cause there’s always yourself,
When the others go home!

Rainy Day

Beneath the leaves of a bright yellow flower
A fairy sits and listens to the shower
Of rain falling plip plop all around
On plants and rooftops and on the ground

Washing everything clean and clear
The trees, the houses, and even the air
So everything's fresh and sparkling like new
And covered with drops like morning dew.

Though clouds hide the sun, it's a pleasant day
Relaxing, refreshing, in every way
A time for renewal and quenching the thirst
Of the parched and dry and dusty earth.

As the fairy sits still and soaks it in
The sights and sounds cause her to grin;
She's happy to see within and without
The end of the long and weary drought

For she knows the rain and the sun take their turns,
An important lesson in life she has learned
To flow with the times, for she knows they will change
As rainbows and sunshine follow the rains.

In every moment there's something to gain
Like listening to the music of the falling rain;
Our wise fairy knows that life brings us showers
And she also knows that showers bring flowers.

Fairy Dream

I was down in the meadow pondering my mind,
When I spotted a rose petal falling behind.
I mused that the butterflies were just having fun,

Flitting and flirting under a daffodil sun.

I sat by the stream and drank tea with a dragon.
We had dream berry bread and wine by the flagon.
Up popped a Fairy King on top of a starfish,
"Fly with me, dear maiden. I'll be all that you wish."

I thanked the dear dragon and waved on with a tear.
He promised me happiness with nothing to fear.
I hopped on the starfish and cherished my lover,
Touching his pure heart and the strength of his fervor.

We rode to the meadow and lay in fresh roses.
Passions breathed kisses and the stroking of noses.
Now, musing, the bright butterflies pondered the fun,
As we flitted and flirted in daffodil sun.

Time and again, it was more pleasure than rainbow.
A laugh and a touch and a whisper would follow.
Sated, I trifled; "Lord, are you granting my wish?"
"Or, is this a sweet dream caused by riding a fish?"

"It is all that you wished for." he said with a kiss.
"Your soul so long troubled, it mislaid all of this."
Then, I awoke. The gentle dragon was weeping.
"I'm sorry, my darling, you and I were sleeping."

"Fairy Kings and starfish do not ride in this stream."
"Your lover, your heart's passions, were only a dream."
"But, I have been part of you since time has begun."
"I am real, beloved, in this daffodil sun."

Twinkle, Twinkle, Tinkerbell

Twinkle, twinkle, Tinkerbell,
Dancing in the wooded dell.
The colored flowers are her friends,

'Tis her that makes the willow bend.

And on her toes are rings and things,
That glisten as she plays and sings.
From hay and straw she builds a nest,
So that she may lay her head to rest.

And deep within the leafy ground,
A trail if silver can be found.
'Tis placed there by the snails her friends,
So she may join them where it ends.

She has I'm told a bag of tricks,
Made from leaves and tiny sticks.
When all is quiet, all is still,
She casts out magic for her thrill.

She spreads her wings so she can fly,
To reach the sun up in the sky.
Across the breeze she flits and flashes,
Too fast to see through blinking lashes.

And so she twinkles in the light,
And catches moonbeams in the night,
She is a funny little creature;
Who will vanish if you try to reach her.

And so the little Tinkerbell,
Dances in the fairy dell

Advice for Noah and McKenna

If you can listen to your heart,
When your head is screaming.

If you can see yourself,
Through broken dreams.

If you can speak with a smile,
Through words unspoken.

If you can hold a child,
In arms of love.

If you can walk with grace,
Barefoot through the earth,
And feel the rhythm of natures pulse.

If you can lift the spirits of a shattered life,
When all around you, your life crumbles.

If you can build your future,
On faith and truth,
In a time confused by evil's work.

If you can see through eyes of clarity,
And guard strong the mind from polluted thoughts,
If you can cherish the dew of the mornings glory,
And reach to the stars,
Whilst grounded by gravity.

If you can sigh,
Yet find release in those sighs,
And strive to do what you know is right.

If you can hold your head,
While envy burns you,
And nurse the scolds of others hate,
If you can be yourself,
while life is cloned,
And hold fast the gift of freedom.

If you can fight for what is honorable,
Yet hold the banners for peace and justice.

If you can laugh with others who laugh at you,
If you can make yourself laugh,
Then humor is yours.

If you can feel the pain of all mankind,
Yet hold the visions of a better time,
Then yours is life, And everything in it.

And which is more,
you'll be... my children.

Close Your Eyes

Hold your breath and close your eyes,
Squeeze all the magic from inside.
Step through the circle that time defies,
And journey into wondrous skies.

It's time to dance, it's time to sing,
Enjoy the peace that fairies bring.
See their world through eyes of wonder,
And on their beauty you may ponder.

Go deep within the wooded ground,
'Tis there the secrets can be found.
Enjoy your journey, that begins right here.
Close your eyes, and have no fear.

Today I Think We'll Go For a Walk

Today I think we’ll go for a walk,
And with my children I will sit and talk.
We’ll go hunting bluebells deep in the woods,
We’ll put on our wellies, and pull on our hoods.

 

Today I think I’ll dance round the trees,
We can chase butterflies and bumble bees,
And if we find snowdrops we’ll stare in wonder,
Laugh if it rains, scream if it thunders.

Today I think I’d like to be four,
Follow the footprints of an animal’s paw.
If we get cold we’ll sit round a fire,
While fire sprites dance for us to admire.

Today I’ll eat penny sweets, crisps and chocolate,
We’ll climb over fences and fill up our pockets,
With feathers and twigs and good luck things,
We’ll use dock leaves for nettle stings. 

Trickling waters will call us all in
To play in their wetness, to dance, to sing.
We can hold hands and run really fast,
Chasing the rainbow, how long will it last?

Look out for goblins, giants, and trolls.
We can set up a camp with me on patrol.
And when it is time to leave our play,
And head for our beds to wearily lay.

We’ll say good to all the things,
The rainbow the sprites with their fiery wings,
The nettles the trees the sparkly stream,
And home we’ll return with a head full of dreams. 

Today I think we’ll go for a walk.

Fairy on my Nose!

There was a fairy on my nose,
I saw her, I'm sure with tiny toes.
She smiled at me with an impish grin,
Then plucked my hair and began to spin.

 

 She spun a tiny spiders web,
For a mummy spider with a broken leg.
And then the cheeky little thing,
Flew really fast and stole my ring.

She put it in a magpies nest,
Then quite exhausted sat down to rest.
When it had caught its fairy breath,
She flew in my ear, scared me to death.

She buzzed around in there for a while,
Then pulled out a drum with a sneaky smile.
She took six lashes from my eyes,
And made a fiddle with knots and ties.

She gave these things,
The drum and strings,
To a group of nearby bugs.
They danced and they played,
For the rest of the day.
Then they all gave each other big hugs.

I still have the mark on the end of my nose,
Footprints from the fairy's toes,
I think they're speckled,
But some say they're freckled.
There was a fairy on my nose!

McKenna's Fairy Realm

A place where few can go or tell
Follow the stream to the fairy dell.
Wings of silken lace, help them rise,
Upon the breeze of perfumed skies,
And in the place where the wee ones play,
Are made the flowers and the sunbeam's ray.
Captured in the fairy cup,

Each dewdrop is to gently sup.

The creatures they all sing along
To the merry little fairy song.
Dancing round on tippy toe,
They flash their colours just for show.
Their magic is a secret thing,
As they sit around the fairy ring.

The great tall trees are their best friends,
Guard them from where the forest ends.
And on the days when the sun is bright,
They catch the shadows and cast down light.
'Tis then you'll see the magic true,
Placed on the ground for me and you.
And as the branches gently rustle,
Behind the petals the fairies bustle.

With a flash of light they rush away,
from vision of man. They stay,
When all is quiet, all is calm,
They flicker within the sheltered balm,
To gently float once again,
And twinkle in the dripping rain.

Each fairy has, so they say,
A pointed ear on which they lay,
To hear what roots of trees might say.
The roots feel deep, and know it's true,
When we approach, the me and you.
The Fairies realm, is for a few

But you will know when elves invite
Your chance to see the fairy sight
For those who search for fairy ground
With good intention just and sound
Do not disturb this little place
Just look at the magic of their face
Their pointed ears and wings of lace
The fairies live quietly secure
Amongst themselves, in a World that's pure.
They know your mind, it won't deceive
A fairy if you don't believe!

Silence Practiced

Still we practice in silence,
In the quiet moments within our minds,
Afraid to speak of secret knowledge,
Solitude a gift of disguise.
Observe the fate of those before us,
A lesson learned for all who know.
Strength in silence will be passed,
To those born of the gifts.
Until the time of future ages,
When those in silence will be heard...

The Fairy Realm

You must believe with all your heart and soul.
Let no man tell you otherwise,
Or fill your head with darkened lies. 

 

The way to get there is many in choice,
But a good first step is the inner voice.
By air, or water, by earth or fire,
  The Fairy Realm is your hearts desire. 

There you are free, all you can be,
And everything is real.
You could sit for a while ,
Upon a sundial,
And chase the rays of the light,
You could float on the air,
Without any care,
Or fly with butterfly wings.
Buzz with the bees, and fly through the trees,
Float down with the falling leaves. 

You could go on a boat,
Through sparkling waters,
Made out of the shell of a tortoise.
Sit in the ring where the fairies all sing,
Drink, dance, or have a fairy fling.
Diddle on the fiddle, play fairy in the middle,
Sparkle, shine, drink buttercup wine.
'Tis not far, you must believe,
Just follow the voice from within.

They

Transparent, yet solid,
Silent, yet full of song,
They flew with roots deep.
Through time they see,
Through waves of energy they feel.
Invisible, yet blinding with light.
Unknown... yet all around.
No boundaries hold them,
Yet golden threads unit them.
Wisdom fills them, feeds them.
Never ending, flowing, gently.
They glimpse at us,
yet do not disturb,
But stay always... for now...
From were they come,
No one can say.
To were they travel,
No one can say.
But they are here now
To give us strength,
They were with us before,
To give us insight,
And they will be with us again,
To become one.

Try to...

Try to soar

Try to fly

Try to float

And touch the sky!

Let go of grief

Let go of strife

Let go of hate

And just live your life!  

Dare to be You

Dare to Dream!

Dare to be a Star!

Never give up!

Just be who you are! 

I Love You Gao

A million stars up in the sky
one shines brighter I cant deny

A love so precious a love so true
a love that comes from me to you

The angels sing when you are near
within your arms I have nothing to fear

You always know just what to say
just talking to you makes my day

I love you Gao with all of my heart
together forever and never to part.

Surrending Myself

Surrending myself to your love
Surrending myself to happiness
Surrending myself to mystery
Surrending myself to much bliss

Surrending myself to kindness
Surrending myself to complete joy
Surrending myself to my life
Surrending myself to that boy!

I am Here

If you need a laugh, I am here
If you need a hug, I am here
If you need a shoulder to cry on, I am here
If you need someone to support you, I am here
If you need to feel cared for, I am here
If you need someone to listen, I am here
If you need to hear that someone loves you, I am here
If you need to feel wanted, I am here
If you need to talk, I am here
If you need a friend, I am here

Scattered Thoughts

My thoughts lay printed on sheets of paper,
Stored in the drawer of my mind.
They are organized, neat,
Nothing out of place.

They can’t be touched by outside strangers,
Filled with dangers and cruel intentions.
I’m the only one with the key,

To this infinite drawer with ideas.

But sometimes a foreign gust of wind comes,
It rattles and shakes the knob to this drawer.
Each day getting stronger and stronger,
Closer and closer to freeing those papers.

The enemy, the wind is a master of uncovering.
Of daintily plucking out my papers
Like dandelions on a vast field,
To blow and disperse the seeds to unknown areas.

It does it so discreetly, that I don’t realize its actions
Until that very last moment
When the wind turns into a hurricane
And the drawer is finally broken into.

My papers fly out to this hurricane.
Crinkling, tossing, turning.
A complete mess of black and white figures,
Soaring at high speeds in the whirlwind.

I’m stuck in the eye of the hurricane.
Huffing and puffing, jumping and reaching,
To retrieve my sacred papers.
Although I know it’s impossible.

I must wait for it to move on,
And pick up each paper, piece by piece.
Eventually I’ll find most of my thoughts,
To put back in the drawer, for the wind to come again.

What is True Joy?

I'll be happy once I've done this certain thing.
We all say this often not realizing what it brings.
We look only to the future for our happiness.
Letting life slip through our fingers in its fullness.
Will we really feel complete when the task is done,
or look back and see how we missed so much fun?
Self consumed so we can't see anything else,
hurting those we love as well as ourselves.

So many things around us to be grateful for,
when seeking for an answer willingly open the door.
So often, others see what's in front of our face,
but we're too blind to look as we're snared in the race.
What is this life supposed to be about?
Is it money, fortune, fame, or a big house?
When speaking to a man on his dying bed,
none of these answers are what he said.
Family, love, laughter are what we should seek.
These are the precious things right outside your door.

Never Stop...

Never stop caring about the little things in life
Never stop dreaming or give into strife
Never stop wondering, are we on our own
Never stop thinking has your spirituality grown

Never stop building bridges that leads to better tomorrows
Never stop trying or give into sorrow
Never stop feeling amazed at the beauty that surrounds you

Never stop hearing the music or give into the blues

Never stop pushing away negative thoughts that make you feel sad
Never stop looking at the all the miracles we have had
Never stop loving the ones you hold dear
Never stop giving or give into the fear

Never stop smiling and look forward to each new day
Never stop shining in your own special way
Never forget that all storms will clear
Remember brighter tomorrows are always near

Once I Was a Happy Girl

(a poem about bullying)

Once I was a happy girl
Then came the day I died
I took my life due to pain
Then suddenly people cried

I used to be so outgoing
But a day came that I was not

I was bullied and teased
And some would say I'm hot

But those that said that
Were only pretending
Because they wanted to hurt me
With all their messages they're sending

I cried almost every day
I would sit alone with no friends
That's when I decided
That all of this was going to end

I took a bunch of pills that day
Then I locked more door at night
I didn't think what this would do
When Mom would see this sight

Now I am a dead girl
And my family paid the price
All because I was harassed
By people who weren't so nice

Once I was a happy girl
Now my memory is all that's left
Please put a stop to bullying
So no other lives would suffer this theft!

In Your Arms

In your arms,
I’m in my safe haven.
With you holding me tight,
I have no other craving.

All I need,
is that one look,
that says you’re always there,
just like in a fairy-tale book.

Your eyes talk to me,
as the world stands still.
My once empty heart,
now with love does fill.

Your eyes tell me,
that you'll love me everyday.
No matter what may come,
you'll be there to stay.

I tell you everything
and never with a lie.
All my worldly secrets,
and everything that once made me cry.

Everything in my past,
with you I can forget it all.
I know I can trust you,
to catch me if I fall.

If only I could explain,
how much love I have for you.
Then maybe, just maybe
you'd feel it too.

Trick-or-Treat

Trick-or-Treat is all you hear,
kid's running around yelling "look what I got!".
Ghost yell "Boo! I scared you!".
Teens scaring little kids by saying "They're gonna get you."

There's a full moon tonight,
The monsters come out and play.
Black cats and bats are all over in the night,
You better not cross through the grave yard today.

Pumpkins glowing thorough the night,
fog covering the glow of the moon.
Teens saying "they are very near."
And all kids get very scared.

Run run as fast as you can,
though the night.
Only seeing by the glow of the moon,
Hearing laughs of the cruel dead ghouls.

Doors shut,
parents say good night.
Now you just have to wait,
for next Halloween Night.

The Worst Nightmare on Halloween

Elegant in burnt orange afterglow,
Sparkling darkness opens the show.
Strangers arriving from all around;
Some even, from the bad side of town.

They come afoot and driven by car;
Toddlers in strollers, they can’t walk far.
Mothers shouting orders to stay in sight,
Transgressors will rightly rue this night.

Flickering lights and untied laces;
Stomping feet going through their paces.
Scampering legs are willing accomplices,
To smiling eyes and hideous faces.

Through the gauntlet of terror they swarm;
Decked to play in pillaging uniform.
Tree and flower tremble and waiver;
Bumped and trampled in their fervor.

Garish masks obscure excited grins.
Shrieks of joy emanate from within.
Ghostly spirits from the bowels of earth,
Hang from limbs, grinning in ghoulish mirth.

Silken chains embracing all who stray,
Beckons the widow to her frightened prey.
Garnished by howling cries of certain demise;
Steaming cauldrons await their fleshy prize.

Engraved heads from the garden of Hades,
Impotent charms to appease candied fantasies,
Festooned arches bedecked in orange and black,
Ornate ornaments to win the neighborhood plaque;

Hostiles charitably looting town;
Sacks of booty slowing them down.
With bulging bags filled with plunder,
The advancing hordes scatter asunder.

Like tocks from a clock they continue to arrive,
Will the morrow find villagers still alive?
Spades of woe befall each who rashly ignore,
Ominous omens glued to shop window and door.

Pass me by, to my neighbor grace his stage;
Assuage with him your gluttonous rage.
Rapacious hands swaying in ritual dance;
Exuberance untethered in blitzing advance.

Eyeing my castle the motley mobs charge in,
Guarded but by growling dog and smiling pumpkin;
Upon my stoop they brazenly climb,
My breath on hold, I hear the chime;

My time I fear is near at hand,
My blood or treasure they demand;
Hunkered down and hidden from sight,
No mercy presented for my plight;

With sweaty palms and pounding heart,

"Please Lord" I pray, "make them depart;"
"Please go away" I silently scream,

"I forgot the candy on Halloween!"

Zombie is You (another Halloween Poem)

The darkness comes from deep inside.
It creeps up from out of your dark side.
Gnawing at your flesh by your graveside.
Of a life that you feel lives you mortified.
Creeping death shivers down your spine.
You feel it wrap around, you feel it reassign.
Your screams and visions will all align.
Under the moon they will combine.
The cares and the worries you place on today.
Are replaced by blinding pain in your temple, you have nothing to say.
Your feel all hope go floating away.
Leaving you alone, as your body starts to decay.
You see your life end, but when did it begin?
You fall to your knees as your thoughts go within.
The deepest part of your soul, under your skin.
You see the vision of the bitter end.
You stay alive as the skin and muscle fall from your bones.
You get lightheaded and collapse on your knee bone's.
You feel like you're in an episode of the twilight zone.
All you can do is let out a little moan.
You finally succumb to your fate.
You finally become the desolate.
Roaming the earth as deaths advocate.
Bringing your victims to hells gate.

Halloween

The corpse that walks,
its solemn line.
The vampire stalks,
finds blood to dine.
The werewolf howls
at the silver moon.
His human form
what's showing at noon.
The mummy's cries
of pain and loss.
His wraps that smell of must and moss.
The witch that flies,
upon her broom
casting curses
and spelling doom.
The black cat scurries,
hisses and claws
through the graveyard walks his paws.

My Five!

Gypsy, Gao, Mouse, Gizmo
and then there’s Wickett our smallest kitty,
One, two, three and four and five,
they’re so frisky, so alive.

Gypsy is my number one,
A couple of years old and so much fun.
Purrs and snuggles on my shoulder,
she's kind of stuck up but a little bit older.
She meows for water from the sink,
I turn it on, for her to drink.

Goa is my number two,
proud and handsome, I tell you!
He prances like a little pony,
and you know what? That’s no baloney.
He guards the others from above,
and sometimes gives a little shove.

Mouse is my number three,
chubby, plump as one can be.
Always cleaning, always licking,
he tries to run but his paws keep sticking.
He keeps on searching for a hand,
to scratch under his collar band.

Gizmo is my number four,
always eating, more and more.
Loves to snack on lots of munchies,
Tender Vittles and some crunchies.
Begging, pleading, day and nights.
"Give me crunchies, or I’ll bite!"

Wickett is my number five,

He jumps, rolls over, takes a dive.
Up my back, onto my shoulder,
he's getting from shy to a little bit bolder.
Then he jumps to catch a fly,
He's six months old, my sweetie pie.

Gypsy, Gao, Mouse, Gizmo,
and there’s Wickett our smallest kitty.
Five, four, three and two and one,
I love my kitty cats, they’re so much fun.

Dad

*RIP Conrad Sean RockCastle -
you will always be loved and missed
 

Words aren't easy

when feelings run deep,
But still, there's one thing
you should know-
The values you gave me,
the lessons you taught,
Are with me wherever I go,

And loving a dad
who's as special as you
Is something
I'll never outgrow.

Déja Vu

Mirror, Mirror on the wall,
Surly you do lie.
Mirror, Mirror on the wall,
We don’t see eye to eye.

Mirror, Mirror by the stairs,
Your image is surly haunting.
Mirror, Mirror by the stairs,

My self-esteem you’re taunting!

Mirror, Mirror above the sink
Are you showing my insides?
Mirror, Mirror above the sink
Why cant you give me pride?

Mirror, Mirror in my hand,
It really isn’t fair
Mirror, Mirror in my hand
I cant help but stop and stare

Mirror, Mirror on the ground,
Now you’re smashed in thousands.
Mirror, Mirror on the ground
A thousand me's surrounding

I Wish...

I wish I could replace hurt with anger,
But I don't have it in me
I wish I could scream and call you names
But how will that set me free?

I wish I had a heart of stone,
So these tears would just go away!
Why does it have to hurt to lose a friend?

I wish I knew why you're treating me this way?

I wish I had it in me to get angry at you
But I still love you even though you hate me
I don't know what else there is to say
I guess you will never ever really see!

On Fairy Wings, We Fly

Warm days of summer, with foolish dreams
Wisp me to a brook of whispering satin streams
Wrap me in a cloak of honeysuckle's delight

Ride me on a moonbeam, warm my winter's night

We'll play as leprechauns, string raindrops as pearls
Swing from a rainbow, become lollipops in swirls
We'll trellis the sky in streamers made of mink
And run with the thunder without even a blink

We'll sip a daydream, that from the night air falls
Through the narcotic breeze as tranquility calls
See violets that slumber inside speckled blues
As we paint our own world in pearlescent hues

When time needs a rest, and the sky starts to yawn
We'll snuggle on Jupiter or any planet we're on
We'll sprinkle our thoughts along sugar plum aisles
Eat bits of chocolate, as we polish our smiles