Poppa

He is there when I need him most

He is the one I can turn to whenever

He is the hero to all he loves

He is my Poppa now and forever!

He is a strong shoulder to lean on

He is the quiet calm in the storm

He is the one that'll never judge you

He is where bonds begin to form!

He is the one who'll pick me up

He is the one who'll hold my hand

He is the one who'll never betray you

He is the one who'll take a stand!

He is the defender of many

He is a beacon of light in the dark

He is the one who'll let you cry

He can always mend a broken heart!

He is and always will be my Poppa

He is a husband, father, uncle, brother, and friend

He will always be here for each of us

He will always be here until the very end!

All Is Not Fine

He whispers in my ear

"You are not needed here"

He seems to fill the room

Where there is dark and gloom

He whispers in my ear

"They lie about love that is clear"

He comes from all around

He came with not a sound

He whispers in my ear again

"You'll be mine" I can see his evil grin

He is nothing but a dark dream

A shadow that's worse than he seems

His whispers bring me fear

And he keeps whispering in my ear

Chills run down my spine

All is not fine...

All is not fine!

You Were Meant for Me

There is peace in my soul

For such a long awaited time

There is love in my life

A love of melody and rhyme.

Once you took hold of my heart

I knew no other could have reached

As whispered fate took my hand

To levels only you could reach.

You are my everything, my life

Together we will live eternally

I knew the first night we met

You were meant for me.

God Gave Me You

I never asked

For a blessing like you.

Like I've spoken to God

And my wishes came true.

I asked for a person

To love and to hold.

To be loyal and faithful

Not angry and cold.

God placed you on Earth

As I quested to find,

The one who would be there

So sweet and so kind.

In my wildest dreams

I would have denied.

That something so perfect

Could at all be supplied.

You have such a handsome face

But you are so much more.

You're my friend and I love you.

Your flaws I ignore.

With this small, simple statement

I give you and pray,

That you'll love me forever,

And forever you'll stay.

My First and Last Love

By a fleeting touch of your hand 

You light up my skin and my heart 

And I know that you are the man 

With whom I just can't bare to part. 

I feel love and passion so deep 

That I'd rather spend every night 

Watching you quietly as you sleep, 

Shining softly with love so bright.

Not a crush, nor habit, nor lust... 

No, I know now I've found in you 

The love of my present and past, 

The star that shall never go out. 

There's no other power so strong, 

No emotion, no bond of trust, 

Life without you is just all wrong, 

You are my first love and my last.

Xavier's Candle

I lit my candle in memory of you

It burns brightly on my end stand

Because I loved you and love you still

I wish you were here to take my hand

My candle burns brightly like my love

I lost you in this world but not forever

I know I'll see you again in the next world

And don't worry my love for you will die, NEVER

Yes, I miss you and sometimes I cry

But I know you're at peace with no more pain

I just lit my candle and said a prayer for you

Wishing I could just hug you once again

Rain

As I listen to the raindrops on my window sill

I sit here and wonder how I can be here still

I've lost those that are so dear to me

Sometimes I just wish it didn't have to be

I want all the pain and suffering to go away

I want it to end today, tomorrow, and yesterday

I'm tired of losing those I'm closest to

I'm worried that the next one might be you

As I sit here alone I just listen to the rain

And wish it could help wash away my pain

My sorrow is like the rain pouring outside

I have nothing left, nothing I can hide

My family and friends have tried to console me

But sometimes I want to be alone, why can't they see?

I know they love me and are worried about my pain

But that's a part of this life, just like the pouring rain

This Heart Still Beats

 This heart still beats in me

But somehow I can't even see

I lost all faith in the world today

I lost what I love on this very day

This heart still beats but in pain

What is there in this life for me to gain?

I want nothing more than to end it all

But I know if I did it would be you to fall

This heart still beats but sadly

My lifre for you I would give gladly

I wonder if this is all just a bad dream

For if it's not I fear I will scream

This heart still beats in me

Tears in my eyes... can you see?

I want this pain to just go away

And never come back another day!

Crying One Last Tear

Walking through the rain,

I try to forget the pain.

I try to ignore the sting in my eyes,

Because I know a strong girl never cries.

I begin to run, run from my fears.

But I am followed by my ever present tears.

I want to leave these familiar faces,

Leave behind all of these frequent places.

But where will I go? What will I do?

All I know is I can't get far away from you.

Something always keeps me here,

Crying one last tear.

Black Spot

There's a black spot where my heart used to be

A hole that can never mend or let me be free

There's this spot that is just overwhelming

Where my heart used to always sing

A black spot that needs to be erased

It took something that can never be replaced

These tears feel like they'll never stop

I just wonder if I'll ever be able to get back on top

This black spot and these endless tears

Nothing but pain, sorrow, and so many fears

When will there be light again in my heart?

When will the laughter and joy begin to start?

There's a black spot where my heart used to be

Endless tears that'll never let me be free...

Trying to Stay Strong

I have to be strong not for me

But for everyone else...

I want to cry, I want to scream

But no one can see my hollow tears

I keep you near to my heart to keep me sane

But the thought of you makes me sad

I want to hide and cry alone

But you are here and it keeps me real

I know you've left this solid ground

But in my heart you still live

You've kept me together for not so long

So I will stay strong for everyone else

Even though I just want to wither away and die

I don't want everyone to see me when I cry

In my heart you'll always be

But I wish you could just be here with me

You were too young to leave this place

I just wish I could see your cute little face

To hear you call me "pretty light" again

That would make me smile, is that such a sin?

I have to be strong even though I am weak

I can't even comfort those that I seek

Why did you have to leave us so soon?

You were supposed to blossom and bloom!

It's hard trying to stay so strong

I don't know if I can for very long

For Xavier

When the sunny skies turn from blue to gray,

I can't help but wonder what would you do today?

I wonder if you know how many lives you have touched,

Do you know that people here love you so much?

Can you even know how many dreams you made come true,

Of if you can hear the voices saying "I love you"?

Do you know how many lives you have changed,

And how many lives you completely rearranged?

I wish I could have just one more day, week, year

Because I can't picture the rest of my life without you here.

Just another chance to spend the night and hear your cute little laugh

Another day of fun and giggles with you is what I'd like to have.

Do you know you'll be greatly missed by us all?

Just one more time I want to hear you call me "pretty Light" when I call

Just one more laugh, one more time to see you come through the door

Another smile, another story, another hug, another day... Just one more.