Don't Look Into My Eyes

I beg you please don't look into my eyes

Please don't look for it's my pain you'll see

I don't want you to know this kind of pain

Just let me pretend all is as well as can be

I beg you please don't look into my eyes

They speak volumes more than you know

Please let me pretend that everything is okay

This persona, this mask, it's my little show

I beg you please don't look into my eyes

So much is hidden there, please don't look

I don't want you to see the pain that I'm in 

Please let's just pretend I'm not an open book

Memories

Lost in the memory of things so old

Like a simple touch or a word of love

The look on my Mother's face when she smiles

And the feel of her two little turtle doves.

The sound of my Father's laughter 

And the corny jokes he always told 

Memories of a life that seems long past

Do these memories make my heart grow cold?

Memories of my Mother's hugs 

She used to hold on so very tight

And my Father's kisses on top my head

And how he would say I was his little light.

My parents may be long gone 

But the memory of them remain 

I know they look upon me from above 

No more will the memories cause me pain

I will remember and cherish their love 

And bring that to my own family I will start

With the man I have chosen to be mine

Because it was him I have given my heart

Goldfish Swimming

Around and around and around I go

Will I stop? Oh no oh no!

Must keep swimming to stay away from that cat

He looks at me like dinner, what do you think of that?

Me? Dinner? I'm just a Goldfish 

I'm not a cat's dinner, must stay out of his dish!

Around and around and around I go 

Must keep swimming, can never stop, oh no!

Once...

Once... not so long ago

I felt like I didn't belong here

I was alone and ever so cold

My heart was broken and I didn't care

Then he came into my life 

He was the one that broke the mold

And showed me what love was like

And he warmed a heart that was so cold

I thought I could never belong 

That I was destined to always be alone

But he came in and took my heart 

He set me so high up upon his throne

He makes me feel like royalty 

When before I felt like such a mess

But now with him, my king by my side 

It's his love I crave the most, I must confess

Once... not so long ago

I used to be a lost girl, but now I'm found

I have the man I was always meant to be with

And a love that'll always be safe and sound!

I Promise You

I promise you all that I can give 

For as long as I may live

I promise you a life filled with love

And bliss that can be like Heaven above

I promise you many days filled with joy

And please don't try to be so coy

I promise you the laughter I can give you

And a life filled with surprises too

I promise you that I'll take care of your heart

For nothing could ever tear us apart

I promise you so many wonderful things

Because of you my heart does now sing

I promise you all the love that I can give

For it's because of you that I now live

Enemy to Love

I kept telling myself  "No"

"No, don't fall in love with him"

"No, it'll be my heart that'll break"

But I took a risk on a whim

My heart betrayed me

Because I didn't want to trust

I was afraid of getting hurt again

And watch as my heart goes to rust

But he somehow stole my heart

He vowed his love but he wanted to hate me

He was afraid of getting hurt too

But somehow his love for me made him see

I didn't want to trust again

And lose everything I hold dear

But now all I can think about his him

And how my love for him I want to share

He wanted to see me as the enemy

And betrayed me in the start

He didn't want to love again

But somehow love took over his heart

We started out as friends at first

Then betrayal made us hurt even more

But somehow through all of that

Our love showed us a great life in store

He wanted to hate me but he couldn't

I wanted to forget him, but asked him to stay

His love for me grew as mine for him did too

And now what is left is our love this very day

Poetry Song

Poetry sings deep in the heart of me

A song of beauty that's as blessed as can be

A sweet melody of nature and life 

That'll help relieve the pain and strife

Poetry sings deep in the soul of me

A song of hope and joy that's always free

A melodic harmony of passion and love

That'll make you want to drift away to Heaven above

Poetry sings deep down in all of me

As I write each note it is me that you'll see

It's a song about who I am this very day

It'll show you that I was always meant to be this way!

I Have...

I have no glamour

I have no hope

I have no beauty

I have to cope

I have no faith

I have no heart

I have no soul

I have to start

I DO have glamour

I DO have hope

I DO have beauty

I DID cope! 

I DO have faith

I DO have heart

I DO have soul

I finally DID start! 

Here's How the Story Goes...

Here is how the story goes...

Once upon a time a short while ago

There lived a sweet young girl

Who's heart was set a-glow

A young man came into her life

And he swept her off her feet

He told her he wanted to love her

And that she was ever so sweet

Typical of a story, I know

But where is the happily ever after?

Not all stories will have that

But this story has unwritten chapters

This girl and this young man

Have many journeys ahead of them

They'll have good days and bad

But that's how a story becomes a jem

Despair

Despair of a life I will not have

Loss of any faith or hope

How will I be able to go on

How will I be able to cope?

Despair deep down in my heart

Like a black hole inside out

I often find myself in endless tears

Or I find that I want to scream and shout!

Despair all the way in my soul

Lack of desire to give my all

Wanting more, so much more

But afraid when love comes to call

The Music

The music rings deep down in my soul

A melody that never grows old

A song of passion, love and more

Sweet harmony of a future life in store

The music rings deep down in my heart

The sweetest song from the very start

A song about life with the man I love

Sounds something heavenly from above

The music rings deep down in all of me

Hopefully hearing it will help you to see

It's a song of this love I share with you

That'll be always and forever true

I Offer

I offer you my heart

For you to hold and to keep

I offer you my soul

Because my love for you runs deep

I offer you my mind

Intellectual thoughts and more

I offer you my body

With so much more in store

I offer you my love

Because that's all I have left

To be together forever

Our all is what is quite deft

A Little Story

I need to tell you a little story

A story about you and me

I need to tell you how much I love you

And how you were able to make me see

My life without you has been bleak

Lonely and filled with so much pain

But then you came into my life

And showed me a love that I could gain

Before you entered my life I was alone

Stuck in a dead end relationship with no love

I had to make a choice then and there

Then there you were, like you were sent from Heaven above 

I know you heard this all before

But you mean the world to me

I love you more and more every day

And because of you I am finally free

I need to tell you a little story

About this lost girl who now is found

The man came into her life like a breeze

And together they are on a journey homeward bound

I know this seems like you heard it before

But you are my soulmate, my dark angel, my love

I need you to know what you mean to me

Allow me to show you the light from above 

I will always love you, that is a given

There is nothing and no one that can tear us apart

You are stuck with me always and forever

For it was you that I have given my heart 

So the moral of this never ending story

Is a love that was lost but now is found

Two souls brought together as one

With a long life and love that's safe and sound

Pain

Pain of the past haunts me

Comes back like a tortured soul

Reminding me of what I lack 

And knowing I'll never be whole

Painful memories of betrayal

The trust I have is now gone

And is replaced by anguish 

Wondering if this will last long

Pain of a memory that burns

Knowing the betrayal was there

Wondering if this pain will leave

Will he show me that he does care?

It would be so easy to give up

To take a knife and remove this pain

But if I did I would lose everything 

Including that love I finally did gain!

Save Me

Take this knife from my hands 

Before I do something I'll regret 

Take these pills before they're gone

Before I have my mind all set

Take my hand and tell me you love me

Don't let me fade away into the abyss

Hold me and wipe away all my tears 

Don't let me become something you'll miss

Save me from myself before it's too late

And show me that I mean something more

Don't let me vanish into the endless dark 

Let me feel that love deep in my heart's core

When I Am All Alone

When I am all alone 

My thoughts go to you

Hoping and wishing 

And wanting you too

When I am all alone

I daydream about you

My love will be there

Because you know it's true

When I am all alone

I want to be with you

Cuddling in your arms

And to feel your love too

Soon

The colors of the world have faded,

And made the blue skies turn gray.

Everything all around seems jaded,

Even when the night turns to day.

　

Some say this is nature's true gift.

I say it's the sadness all around.

But I know my spirits need a lift,

And I need to hear that cheerful sound.

　

Soon, very soon things will be as was,

And the flowers will bloom again.

Time enough for the crowd to applause,

And the happiness will replace the pain.

I Don't Want To...

I don't want to go back to the way I used to be

Because that was a hellish time of life for me

I don't want to lose this love that I have now

So I will fight to keep it someway, somehow

I don't want to go to bed crying every night

I'd rather find that joy, happiness and that light

I don't want to lose out on so much I have gained

My heart was once broken, shattered and stained

I don't want to go back to the way I used to be

I'd rather be the woman that you see right now in me

As I Walk...

As I walk on delicate petals on the ground

On timid toes I try to keep walking in line

I step gently knowing I could just flutter and fly

Because my love for you is what'll always shine

I walk towards you on scented rose petals

Arms out reaching so I can hold you tight

Let me guide you away from that darkness

I will show you love because I am your light

As I walk towards you knowing you need me

I can feel that you love me as much as I do you

And a small smile plays upon my quivering lips

Needing to show you that love that'll always be true

I walk towards you eagerly waiting for your embrace

Let me take you with me as we soar to the sky

On delicate snow white wings of a dove 

My wings of love for you will allow us to fly

With Each Day

With each day that passes

My love for you grows stronger

You started out my best friend

Then I wanted keep you forever and longer

I felt something from the beginning

Like a pull that tugged at my heart

Something about you made me fall

And I knew it was you from the very start

With each day that passes 

I can only hope for many more 

I can only hope for our future 

With so much passion and love in store!

I knew you were always meant for me

I knew that I had to claim what's mine

You are my everything, my Dark Angel 

And I promise to keep our love in line!

Tired

Tired of always getting the short end of the stick

Wishing my life would finally go the right way

Tired of constantly fighting for what I believe in 

And having to watch every word that I say

So tired that sometimes living seems too much 

Like being in an endless torment we call hell

I wish things would finally be the way I see it

A life, a future, a family, and not my soul to sell

So tired that the physical and emotional pain

Has finally taken a toll on this body of mine

Just once I want something more in this life

Something I deserve, a love that'll finally fall in line

Want to Dance Again

I want to be able to dance again

Upon graceful ballet-slippered feet

To be able to be light as a feather

A task I'm sure that I'll never greet

I want to be able to do pirouettes 

And to be able to move with grace

To be the girl I once used to be 

With a smile forever pasted on my face

Oh how I miss all the lovely things

That came with dancing the ballet 

So much I miss and I once loved 

But there is more to dance than I can say

A Family

A family is what I have always wanted

Children of my own in the future 

A man who'll love me for who I am

And so much more I am sure

A family who I can take care of

And shower with all the love in my heart

And a life with the man that I adore 

I believe that's when it'll all finally start

We May Not Be Perfect

We may not be perfect 

But we are perfectly matched

We may have disagreements 

But we are both attached

We don't need to be perfect

To know this love we share

It's what brought us together

And showed us how much we care

We may not be perfect 

But we both think each of us are

We will fight to hold on to this

It's why this relationship will go far

We don't need to be perfect

To know what is in our hearts

We will have good and bad days

But nothing or nobody can tear us apart

When You're Not Here

When you're not here talking to me

I miss you more than you could possibly know

I long to see your face and hear your voice

And my love for you will always grow

Why do you have to be so far away 

When all I want is for you to be near?

I have this craving for you like no other 

And you always show me that you care

When you're not here talking to me

I look through all your pictures thinking of you

And I find myself smiling just knowing 

That your love for me will always be true

Even though you are far away from me

I know one day we'll be together in life

You will always love and cherish me

And you have promised to make me your wife!

Sometimes at Night

Sometimes at night

I sit and cry

I think about him

And only he knows why

I hate the distance

But the love is strong

I just hope he'll stay

I worry he won't wait long

Sometimes at night

I cry myself to sleep

I dream about him

Because it's him I want to keep

I love him so much

He is the beating of my heart

I want him forever

So our life can finally start

Nothing

I realize I am not worth anything at all

All the signs are there all around me

It's in the things that people have said

Or how they won't let me just be

I know I will never amount to anything

Since all I am is a burden to one and all

Just once I would like to feel like I'm worth more

But instead I feel like my heart started to stall

Snow

When the ground is all white

All covered in brand new snow

I think there's a magic in the air

A feeling that only some will know

It's like a sudden peace is felt 

A happiness from everyone all around

Like nothing could ever go wrong

And the music you hear is a joyous sound

When the ground is all white

And the snow is glittering like tiny stars

You can't help but smile inside 

Knowing joy and love can't be very far

Laughing as you throw snow balls 

Or creating wonderful angels of snow

Doing any of the winter things 

And greeting everyone that you know

Do You Still Think I'm Beautiful?

Do you still think I'm beautiful?

Would you still after time goes by?

Do you still think I'm beautiful?

And if you do, may I ask why?

Do you still think I'm beautiful?

Even though I have many flaws?

Scars from my past pains and more,

When it seemed like love was a lost cause?

Do you still think I'm beautiful?

Even if I don't look my very best?

Messy hair and pale pale skin,

I'm just average, like all the rest!

He Says

He says I'm beautiful

But why don't I feel it?

He says I'm gorgeous

But that doesn't seem to fit

He says I'm lovely

But I don't see it at all

He says I'm his everything

But will he catch me when I fall?

He says he loves me

And I love him too 

He has given me my life

And a happiness through and through

Life

Life isn't about give or take

Life is about the choices you make

Life isn't about what you can get

Life is about the goals you set

Life isn't about all that sad misery

Life is about happiness and finding glee

Life can be cruel as we all know

But Life can be joyful and help you to glow

It's Just a Game

It's just a game they said
But to me it's so much more
It's enjoyment and collecting 
Making friends and not a bore

It's just a game they said 
But it's catching Pokemon too
A way to do something else 
But some don't even have a clue

It's just a game they said 
But it's a way to meet new friends
A game of battling and chance
And all the enjoyment it sends!

Fucking

Fantasy desires

Things left unsaid 

Embracing one another

Clothes are shed

Hot and cold 

Lips upon flesh

Grasping touches

Two bodies mesh

Seeking ecstasy

Love and lust

Thrust upon thrust

This is a must! 

I Didn't Think It Could Happen

I didn't think it could happen

To lose my heart again

To be able to love and be loved

I guess it was finally time that I win

I didn't think it could happen

To be able to feel so loved and free

Just to be able to know happiness

And to finally be able to just be me

I didn't think it could happen

To feel complete... to know bliss

I don't know why I couldn't feel this before
I will never let go of this love that I'll never miss