Good Sir?

Are you noble good sir?

Can you lend me a hand?

For I am lost you see 

And I don't know where I stand

Are you kind good sir?

Can you show me the way?

I forgot how I got here

And I don't know where to stay

Are you geneous good sir?

Can you lend me your ear?

I have so many thoughts in my head

And I only want someone to care

I Wish I...

I wish I could tell you how I feel

I wish my thoughts could be clear as day

I wish I could feel this all powerful love

But I feel empty inside... there's nothing more to say

I wish I could be this grand beauty

I wish I could shower you with love

I wish so many things that'll never come true

But instead I'm lost... when will push come to shove?

I wish I could be a graceful angel

So I can finally take wing and fly

I wish I could feel overwhelming peace

But I don't... and I do not know why...

Petals

I pick up the flower with the biggest petals

I start tearing them off one by one

"He loves me... He loves me not"

Afraid of what I will see when it is done.

I keep tearing the off as tears roll down my face

Horrified that the only one I loved has drifted away

One by one the petals fall in my lap...

As if my heart is getting torn in the same way.

As I hold the last petal in my trembling hand

I drop it down... "He loves me not" with a tear

Do I let go of this love or do I continue to fight?

The answer to that isn't available... just my fear!

The Mask of the Dunce

The mask I wear hides my face...

Protects all from the horror of me.

Hides how I'm feeling with such grace...

Makes it so that real me you can't see!

The mask I wear hides my emotions...

Hides everything I don't wish for you to know.

Protects the world from all my commotions...

Of this lost soul, torn to pieces, with no room to grow!

The mask I wear hides my very being...

Hides everything that I thought I was once.

Shows you the fake smile that you're seeing...

No time for tears... I wear the mask of the dunce!

Happy Anniversary Gao

Oh my love... you know what you mean to me

You are my life... my soul... my everything

And it's only you... my Gao... that I see! 

You have stood by me through thick and thin

You are my constant... my soulmate... my love

And it's only you that has helped me out of sin!

For many lifetimes we have spent together

And I know we'll be together forever more

You are my only true love... always and forever

I don't know if this poem can tell you

How much you truly mean to me

And you know my love for you is true

Happy Anniversary my dark fae

Without you I wouldn't even be alive 

You will always be the one to brighten up my day!

I love you Gao... you know how much I do

You are my Everything and always will be 

And I know that you'll always love me too

If You Cared...

If you cared... then where were you?

You said you were my friend...

But then you vanished... left awhile ago

I guess this is where it all will end?

If you loved me... then why aren't you here?

You told me I could always come to you...

But then you stopped giving me the time of day

I feel lost... and I don't even know what to do! 

If you were in my shoes... you'd know how I feel

You'd be in turmoil... and in a constant state of pain

You'd be afraid of what tomorrow may bring

That's when you'd bring the blade to the vein...

Giving up is so much easier... than living...

You'd know this if you really did care about me

But you see... my fears have finally come true

And it's only now that death will agree!

So if you were my friend, my family, my love...

Then why did you forget about me over here?

When did I become the ghost... invisible to all

I am pleading for help... do you not see my fear?