Tuesday, November 19, 2013

Walk With Me...

Walk with me in the pale moonlight
Hand in hand we will go this trail
Walk with me and hear the wolves sing
Doesn't it make your heart sail?

Walk with me and our souls will be free
We shall roam this earth free spirits again
Walk with me and listen to the songs
Since when did howling become a sin?

Walk with me and let's shed our souls
Become who we were always meant to be
Walk with me and feel our hearts beat
This is how it feels to be set free!

All Things


All things fade with time
It's up to us to make them last
Memories of a love long gone?
Why did this life go so fast?

All things wither and die
But in our hearts they will last
Memories of a love forever true?
Yes, this life did go very fast!

I am the Fragile Rose


I am the fragile rose
One day will wilt and fade
Just give me some love
For that is why I was made

I am the fragile rose
One touch and I crumble
Like teardrops I will fall
You best not make me stumble

I am the fragile rose
Soft and oh so sweet
Beauty cannot be defined
For whence we do meet

Wednesday, August 21, 2013

I Wanted To Write You A Poem


I wanted to write you a poem
To tell you what you mean to me
I wanted to write a sonnet 
Just so you can begin to see

I wanted to write down my words
But fear is holding me back
Since you aren't able to understand
I just don't understand what I lack

I wanted to share something with you
I guess that won't happen the way I want
I only wanted to tell you I love you
But my poetry to you I will not flaunt

Don't Give Up, Don't Ask Why


Imagine a time...
when everything was absolutely right.

When you looked forward to 
waking up the next day. 

When you actually slept through the night. 
When you finally felt peace.
That everything is going to be alright.

When all of a sudden your 
dreams, your hopes and strength 
are gone forever.

All you want to do is scream 
"Please God, tell me it's a dream!" 

When you wake in the morning 
to realize its reality. 

You try to fight the finality. 
You need just a little bit of normality.

You try not to think of "Why" 
all you do is cry. 

You try to be angry with God, 
but end up angry at yourself.

"Why didn't I just stay home that day?" 
"Why can't anything ever go my way?"

You crawl out of bed. 
Decide to give life another whirl. 

You reach out. 
Some reach back. 
Some don't even call back. 

Just when you thought you had no more to lose.
You do. 

These people you thought to be friends just wanted you to use.

So you lay back down just wanting to snooze, thinking why me? 
Is it how I choose?

You begin to give up. 
You don't see a reason any longer 
to even wake up. 

Then all of a sudden you hear 
the sound of the phone ring or 
a knock on the door. 

Someone there to tell you not to give up, 
you're worth so much more. 

You begin to cry while this other person 
is wondering why. 

You try to say 
"Thank you for being my friend today, 
if it weren't for you I would’ve given up
and died."

You now know the answer of "Why".

It’s to remind you 
to never give up 
and to always try. 

Now when I cry I know and don’t ask why.

I get out of bed and again I try.

Sometimes


Sometimes we see things that aren't meant to be seen.
Sometimes things aren't always as they seem.
Sometimes we need someone to call our own,
Especially when we’re alone.
Sometimes people just can’t understand,
Why things get out of hand.
Sometimes life just isn't fair,
Especially when people just don’t care.
And sometimes it's hard to say,
Why things have to be this way.
Sometimes it’s all you can do to get by,
Especially when dreams continue to die.
Sometimes it’s nice to sit in the rain.
Even to just relieve the pain.
And when we've had a really bad day,
Sometimes we just need to get away.
We never know what’s wrong with out pain.
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same.

And sometimes when people get hurt, 
Even the strongest ones may need comfort.

Parasite


Existing in the realm, of its own true hell
the pacing of the parasite begins to swell
it suffers in silence yet demands to be heard
it will never survive without its bevy of words

as an infant, it fed, on what it desired
and the need to grow was quickly retired
it donned a mask it had soon acquired
and eventually dressed in regal attire

I am! I am! it said aloud
while hiding behind a glistening shroud
to none it wavered to none it bowed
worthy am I! it heartily vowed

as a thief of hearts, it sought our souls
and refused to acknowledge the unspeakable tolls
it relished our pain our faults and our woes
acted as friend yet lived as foe

for the lower we were, the higher it’s rise
sometimes nestled on pillows, feathered with lies
soaring as an eagle, through bright blue skies
impeding the light, from watchful eyes

it changed lies to belief and that belief to admiration
it became its own form, of revered celebration
though to those who saw, through the garish decoration
it was nothing more than sheer abomination 

these were few, who could actually see
how sad and sickened, this thing could be
they lost their battles, to make it flee
as it wiggled in joy and laughed with glee

and a new found strength, was gained from the seers
they found it flaunting, in front of its peers
for this mask was now learn-ed and it shed false tears
and a victim was born, its path, though not cleared

for as day turns to night, conflicts persist
the heart can grow cold, but the soul still resists
new defenders of truths will continue to enlist
and the spirit of God will always assist

yes a fight ensued, yet the beast stood tall
and flashed it’s lies, fooling most all
it cried poor me, and with such great gall
It is I who has suffered!, was it’s deceptive call

the truths presented the stern manipulations
the deeds that were done, with much stipulation
the lies that served, as mere stimulations
and these they hoped, were condemning revelations

the mask took form, and revealed a child
the innocence of eyes that appeared softly wild
no sign of his pride, no sign of the vile
how dare the "truths" accuse him of guile

hearts blood flowed, and non seers cried
as the villagers witnessed a man so tried
a man who was beaten, and his humanity denied
a man who was not evil, but sanctified!

The steel once hot, now cooled to strength
it enveloped his soul and his body at length
the blood of hearts, flowing in sync
protected him now from morality’s links

alas truth lost, but so did the beast
for a cancer did grow, and on lies it did feast
from within his throat, it locked in its feet
and his mask is now meeting a deadly defeat

Existing in the realm, of its own true hell
the pacing of the parasite begins to swell
it suffers in silence yet demands to be heard
it will never survive without its bevy of words

Monday, August 5, 2013

Two


We only need... One... Two...
Counting just me and you
Two hearts that beat as one
Two souls that cannot come undone
Two lives intertwined forever
Two people that belong together
Two lips that meet allow sparks to fly
Two bodies that will go so high
Two hands that grope and touch
Two people who love each other so much
We only need... One... Two...
Just me... and just you! 

Friday, June 28, 2013

Writer


whenever one feels 
oneself boxed in
creatively whenever atall
one becomes patterned
one must break oneself
apart and excise all
pride and leave it aside –
and then set out again
frightened and unknowing
as ever toward the
language of silence
in the very direction
of truth toward which
one pointed oneself
in the first place…
only this way
one remains
a writer.

Thursday, June 27, 2013

Paint with Words

Let me paint you a picture with my words
And show you how I see this life
Let me paint you a picture with poetry
And help heal away the strife

Let me give you an image in your mind
One painted with songs, the sweetest kind

Let me give you my words to paint a portrait
And show you that words are artistic too
While painting you an image out of sonnets
I do the thing that poets always do

Giving you a picture, a photo from my lips
Dipping into what makes the poems slip

So let me paint you a picture with my words
Let me raise my voice and sing you a song
And paint this image that's in my head
For I don't know if it'll last and for how long

I will paint as I write this poem
And then I will finally show you my home

Dreams and Wishes at 11:11


I have fallen asleep imagining the phantom caress of your fingertips.
I have drifted off underneath the moonlight, imagining stars in your eyes
and the aurora borealis above our entwined fingers.
I have slipped into slumber feeling the way your holy Soul moved within
my very own ventricle chambers, where I keep my tears,
locked safely away from prying fingers. I have dreamt.

Short, sweet syllables whispered under galaxy-light
explode with helium in the heart of the believing girl.
You know the love I hold for the night sky, you know.
The wishes we made at 11:11 will come true, for I shall not ask Fate
but ask my own strength of will. I will bend the lands and move the Seas.
I have dreamt. I have dreamt.

The dream is no different to the reality.
I still fall asleep feeling glistening touches,
bright with ultra-violet light, scarring the flesh.
Only now I dream, and I know you dream,
and I know that dreams and reality are interchangeable.
Dreams and reality are interchangeable,
we will make it so.

Wednesday, June 26, 2013

You Realize

You realize that you mean very little.
You realize that your heartbeat is only a tiny part of the collective Pulse.
You realize that you could vanish tomorrow, and only the trees outside your bedroom window would notice that the light no longer flickers on and off. 
You realize that you are made of borrowed atoms, that you are composite and connected infinitely to a chain of beings.
You realize that nothing that you touch will last very much longer than you, except the hard hard crust of this turning world.
You realize that if you stand in one place for a very long time in completesilence, it is as if you are simply a part of the wallpaper.
You realize that no one really cares who you are or why you choose to keep walking, and that it is expected of you that you will keep quiet and create.
You realize that you have a duty to the cosmos to keep writing, that you are not designing poetry and prose out of enjoyment, but out of obligation.
You realize that you mean more than you thought.
You realize that your work means the universe.
You realize that you will slowly vanish, but your ink will remain, and that someone somewhere will feel something because of a single word you wrote.
You realize that you were born to write something that lasts forever.

Memory?

Are you just a mirror of my past?
Just a memory that didn't last?

Are you a figment of my imagination?
Friend or foe, or both that combination?

Are you there and yet gone?
I wonder what went wrong?

Are you a ghost of the person I knew?
I wonder... did I even know you?

I wonder many things about you...
The friend that I miss, I once knew!

To Write a Poem...

said to you:
breathe, feel, let the words pour out of you
because they already live within your marrow.

I said to you:
poetry comes as easily as a heartbeat,
unthinking, pounding, every quiver of your ventricle
a stanza, every rush of blood to your arteries, a couplet.

I said to you:
you are the Lord of your own life. 
Bring forth light, banish the darkness—
if you wish it, it will Be.

But now,
the revisionary Messiah,
I say to you:
it is not so.

Poetry is a fickle mistress. 
She is tantalising, her hips swaying down the street,
bringing waves of longing like a storm to a ship: wood beckons
the end on water. Now and again, a flash of lightning words,
illuminating a landscape untouched, unexplored, 
beautiful without understanding. But the thunder rolls,
and we are deafened. These words, these lines,
these little rhymes and rhythms that we clutch to us
like blankets to a child: they dissipate, light smothered by darkness.

Poetry is as a storm: she comes as suddenly as she goes,
and Heaven above, she will leave you with nothing if she can.
And Poetry, that woman with the Devil inside of her,
will make sure that you mean nothing until 
you have captured the words and wrung them to the page.

Oh, but the lack of pretty sentiments and
heartfelt metaphors in this may not fulfil you.
I warn you, though, you hopefuls with flowers in your hair:

To write a poem,
be ready for war.

Just a thought, Not a poem...

While we (human beings) think ourselves so advanced, we really are just another animal species and our evolution has not changed since when we first climbed down from the trees and asked why? While we keep getting answers to this eternal question, it was not that long ago that we made the leap from eating with our hands to using the fork. ( It did not become common in northern Europe until the 18th century and was not common in North America until the 19th century.) We were burning witches at the stake, and today we still, stone women to death, if they are married and raped in some parts of the world. Enlightenment and evolutionary changes seem to be few and far between. We follow like sheep, let our passions erupt, oft times without thinking. We let others do our thinking for us, instead of doing our due diligence, and researching for ourselves. While popular opinion can be vociferous and difficult to go against, were it not for the strong and independent thinking, we would still be tortured and maimed because we did not follow the church's views. Want people to hear what you have to say? Present with love. It is a much stronger force than anger or hate. Anger and hate may win in the short run, but love will reign supreme in the long run, because people want to feel warm and fuzzy, not fearful and angry.

The End of June

The old house across the way,
cracked wood, cracked spines inside,
plays the gramophone constantly.

Merry-go-round hymns float gently
on summer breezes: slowly.
They dance on sunbeams,
gliding through the open window.

Fairy dust hangs in the light
and waits to touch a hopeful heart.

I am warmed by carousel laughter
and piano notes. Here, trapped:
confined to this armchair:

I watch June sail by.

Sunday, June 23, 2013

Rain


I feel so complete when I'm in the rain
I feel no sorrow... I feel no pain...

I let the rain kiss upon my skin,
I'll let it do it again and again...

It may give me a cold but I don't care!
There's a calming sensation from grass to air.

The feeling of love I will always gain...
Because my heart falls open as I stand in the rain.

Happy Birthday Gao


(written on June 18th for Gao's Birthday)

This day is special...
Do you know why?
It's your Birthday,
Time to float so high!

So spread your wings,
And come fly with me.
We shall go to places,
That allow us to be free.

This day is special...
Because it celebrates you!
I have nothing to offer,
But a love that's true.

Always and Forever...
I will always love you!
So Happy Birthday my Dark Fae,
I hope your wishes come true!

Spider


As you crawl across my skin
This fear overwhelms me again
I watch you crawl across my arm
How could something so small be any harm?

I'm sitting frozen in fear
As eight tiny legs crawl near
I think about swatting you
But fear freezes me is nothing new

I make little sounds because I'm afraid
I fear you'll bite me with poison you made
But eventually you crawl off my arm
I wonder if that was your charm?

Monday, June 10, 2013

Let Loose the Waterworks


Let loose the waterworks
Allow myself a good cry
Tears fall on my pillow
Sometimes I don't know why

Let loose the waterworks
Try to let the pain fade away
The hurt can be unbearable
When there are no words to say

Let loose the waterworks
And allow my soul to heal
Memories will come and go
That's how I must always deal

Friday, June 7, 2013

Lust (Draven wrote this with me)

The night is ours
We cling and claw
Nothing but lust
Love is the law

This is our time
We kiss and touch
Love takes over
It is never too much

We need each other
Like moth to a flame
Our yearning for each other
Doesn't need to be tame

We come together as one
Neither could hold back anymore
You take me in completely
I reach all the way to your core


*note: Stanzas by Me are in Italics
Stanzas by Draven are in Bold

Thursday, June 6, 2013

Water's Edge


Incited by the primal joys of night,
I swim inside the lights of the sky.
I cast off along the tempting shores
Wetting the moonlight trail, kiss by kiss,
That I might find my way back home.
My tongue, lips, and my fingers travel,
Living on sweet milk and caramel heights,
Through suffocating jungles of delight.
The dark is Lit by a fire I merge with my own,
Burning to its great and final collapse.
A heap of sizzling embers hiss and steam
And finally sleep at the water’s edge.

Tomorrow's Breath


today I hope for tomorrow's breath,
once I resurface after swimming
from my dreams to yours,
breathing through your lungs,
stealing memories, ones
I could never own.

Sighs of Rain

Let me kiss the earth of your hand
and plant my scent on trembling lands
numb with flashing hunger for thumbs
to circle my nipples, for palms
to carry my breasts like they were
vessels for cupping memory
while waiting for the sighs of rain

I Walk This Trail


So many times I walked this trail
In search of things I cannot find
My love is with me holding my hand
His eyes are always ever so kind

So many times I walked this trail
To a place that only he can show me
To make love in the hollows of the woods
Where both our souls could always run free

So many times I walk this trail
This time it's in my deepest dreams
I've been here many times with you
Many lifetimes it does always seems

Heaven, The Life After

I feel the warmth upon my face as I enter the land of God's good grace,
Friends and loved ones gone before, waiting here beyond the door.
With open arms they welcome me, amazement in my eyes they see.
They look so well and at their best, beauty beholds them now they rest.

I walk across the grass so green, the greenest grass I've ever seen,
I jump and skip and bounce on air, it's almost like there's nothing there.
A sky of blue, not a cloud in sight, perpetual day no darkest night.
Every flower is in full bloom, undefined colours of every hue.

The streams and rivers crystal clear, no rubbish or decay found here.
The sea is calm and turquoise blue, I long to test it, wouldn't you?
The softest sand beneath my feet, at the waters edge where they both meet.
The warmest waters gently flow, bathing me from head to toe.

A city built of alabaster walls, where translucent light eliminates the halls.
Theatres of music and concerts too, magnificent galleries for all to view.
Amazing sights for me to see, I just wander in, there's no entrance fee.
Libraries stacked with books galore, history, science and many more.

The celestial sun does forever shine, it's a perfect temperature all the time.
Orchards here overflow with fruit, a taste in itself that is quite exquisite.
I'm told it will help my soul to restore, pick what I like, there is plenty more.
This ethereal plain is a pure delight, it's my new home, my God given right.

There is nothing here to cause me fear, the Lord protects within his sphere.
An infinity of perfect peace, from the toils of earth I am now released.
I have landed on a higher realm, in perfect harmony to forever dwell.
So believe when I tell you my dear friends, you cannot die, life never ends.