Nothing

I realize I am not worth anything at all

All the signs are there all around me

It's in the things that people have said

Or how they won't let me just be

I know I will never amount to anything

Since all I am is a burden to one and all

Just once I would like to feel like I'm worth more

But instead I feel like my heart started to stall

Snow

When the ground is all white

All covered in brand new snow

I think there's a magic in the air

A feeling that only some will know

It's like a sudden peace is felt 

A happiness from everyone all around

Like nothing could ever go wrong

And the music you hear is a joyous sound

When the ground is all white

And the snow is glittering like tiny stars

You can't help but smile inside 

Knowing joy and love can't be very far

Laughing as you throw snow balls 

Or creating wonderful angels of snow

Doing any of the winter things 

And greeting everyone that you know

Do You Still Think I'm Beautiful?

Do you still think I'm beautiful?

Would you still after time goes by?

Do you still think I'm beautiful?

And if you do, may I ask why?

Do you still think I'm beautiful?

Even though I have many flaws?

Scars from my past pains and more,

When it seemed like love was a lost cause?

Do you still think I'm beautiful?

Even if I don't look my very best?

Messy hair and pale pale skin,

I'm just average, like all the rest!

He Says

He says I'm beautiful

But why don't I feel it?

He says I'm gorgeous

But that doesn't seem to fit

He says I'm lovely

But I don't see it at all

He says I'm his everything

But will he catch me when I fall?

He says he loves me

And I love him too 

He has given me my life

And a happiness through and through

Life

Life isn't about give or take

Life is about the choices you make

Life isn't about what you can get

Life is about the goals you set

Life isn't about all that sad misery

Life is about happiness and finding glee

Life can be cruel as we all know

But Life can be joyful and help you to glow

It's Just a Game

It's just a game they said
But to me it's so much more
It's enjoyment and collecting 
Making friends and not a bore

It's just a game they said 
But it's catching Pokemon too
A way to do something else 
But some don't even have a clue

It's just a game they said 
But it's a way to meet new friends
A game of battling and chance
And all the enjoyment it sends!

Fucking

Fantasy desires

Things left unsaid 

Embracing one another

Clothes are shed

Hot and cold 

Lips upon flesh

Grasping touches

Two bodies mesh

Seeking ecstasy

Love and lust

Thrust upon thrust

This is a must! 

I Didn't Think It Could Happen

I didn't think it could happen

To lose my heart again

To be able to love and be loved

I guess it was finally time that I win

I didn't think it could happen

To be able to feel so loved and free

Just to be able to know happiness

And to finally be able to just be me

I didn't think it could happen

To feel complete... to know bliss

I don't know why I couldn't feel this before
I will never let go of this love that I'll never miss

I Didn't Want to Believe It

I didn't want to believe it

But I knew it from the start

There was just something about you

Somehow you have stolen my heart

I didn't want to believe it

I was in denial at start of things

But you cast your spell over me

And now because of you my soul sings

I didn't want to believe it

But somehow I have fallen for you

And now I would do anything to make you happy

Because my love for you is deep and true!

Dear Mom

Dear Mom, 

I don't know what to say

It's been so many years 

But I miss you every day

I wish I could tell you

All the things in my life

The good and the bad

The happiness and the strife

I miss you so very much

I wish you could see

I need you more than ever

But I know you still love me

You became a beautiful Angel

So many years ago

I cried when you left

I wish you didn't have to go

I need you Mom

I will always need you

You are who I strive to be

But I don't have a clue

I love you so much

You ride on the wings of a dove

You are my Guardian Angel

Who had to go to Heaven above

Remember me please 

I am your Sweet Pea

I love and miss you

Love, Annastasia Rose Marie

There's Something I Need to Say

There's something I need to say

I need to get it out of my head

If I don't I think I'll burst 

So I'll write it down instead

I have loved you since I met you

I knew you were the one for me

I couldn't stop thinking about you

And I needed to somehow make you see

I love you and I will always do so

Because you are my one and only

You turned world into pure bliss

And now because of you, I'm not so lonely

I didn't think a love like this existed

I thought it was some kind of fantasy

But then you came into my life

And love me for just being me

There's something I need to say

But I think you finally know what it is

Because it's me that you love

And this poem, it's not a pop quiz

It's a story of our love, his and hers

A love found without even seeking

We found each other, now we remain true

Because it's our love that I am speaking

Angel of Light...

Angel of light, beauty, elegance and grace

She doesn't realize she has such a lovely face

She thinks she's alone, lost with no hope

She wonders how it is that she's able to cope

Angel of light, beauty, elegance and grace

Looking for love in this dark and dreary place 

She doesn't know that she has this glow 

If only she could see, then she would know

Angel of light, beauty, elegance and grace 

She wants to find him, she hopes to see his face

She tries to show happiness when inside she's dead

Lost without him, she worries he'll go away instead 

Dead Thought

I had a thought in my head

But I'm afraid it just went dead

The thought decided to stop living 

Just when I thought it was so giving

Poor thought why did you have to go?

Now I'm afraid I will never ever know

I had a thought in my head

But it died and left instead 

Rest in peace oh thought of mine

To your memory I'll drink this red wine

Dear dear thought why did you go?

What was it that you couldn't show?

I had a thought in my head

Now there's nothing to be said 

Magic

I know that there's this magic in me

I believe it's what allows me to be

The magic in me helps me to grow

And this love inside me is what I'll show

I know that there's this magic in me

I don't care if you will be there to agree

But this magic is what makes me shine

It's the part of me that makes it all mine

I know that there's this magic in me

And I don't care if you can't even see

Because this magic will always be there

No matter if you see what it is that I share

Tormented

Tormented deep down in my soul

The demons fight to break free

Wanting to wreck havoc on the world 

Not caring about what people will see

Tormented deep down in my heart 

The beats of my heart quicken too fast 

Fear and worry are clouded in my mind

Not sure if the love felt will really last

Tormented deep down in my spirit 

Sadness overwhelms all other emotions

Like a tidal wave crashing in on shore

Causing all this fuss and commotion!

I Will Stand Strong and Proud

I will stand strong and proud

I will no let you tear me apart

I am who I was always meant to be

And that's why I freely give my heart

I am not the person you can beat up

Nor am I the one you can just throw away

I am the one who'll move on with my life

And I'll remain strong to this very day

When you find amusement in your hate

I will get right back up when you push me down

I won't find amusement, but pity for you instead 

Because it's you who'll be the joke, the clown

I will stand strong and proud

Because of the person I am today

Your words of ridicule and hate don't affect me

Because I am me... I was born this way!

The Heart Knows

Words cannot express what the heart feels

The heart tells you when you have found love

It's up to you to act upon this knowledge

And not let it flutter away on the wings of a dove

Words fail where the heart always knows

Because it's deep in the soul, the core of you

Don't let it slip by before it's too late

Because the heart knows what was always true

Vile Words

Vile words of hate tossed at me

As if they were stones of lead

Words that cut deep in my heart

Hurting me with what is being said

Vile words of hate tossed at me

Cruel names and nasty speak

But I stand here and take it

Because I'm not strong, I'm weak

Hello Old Friend... Death

Hello old friend, you come to see me too soon

I'm not ready to give up yet, I have so much more to give 

Please come back in another 30 or 40 years 

Then I'll freely go with you. I will no longer live.

Hello old friend, why did you come to visit?

I told you I am not ready to go yet but you still stay

Why? Can't you see I still have life in me

And I have so much more to do and to say?

Hello old friend, I know you are here to take me

Since you are Death none the less...

But I'm not ready to go, I'm not ready to die

Please come back when there is no more mess

I Don't Have Faith

I don't have faith in myself anymore

Since everything I loved faded away

It's all my fault I suppose but who knows

Maybe it's always been this way

I don't have faith in anything anymore

Because faith is only there for fools

It's something that you can't feel or touch

Better not to have than life's tools

I don't have faith in life anymore

Since in the end we all will die

Nothing is gained from trusting others

Except knowing that love is a lie

My Heart is Open

My heart is open

I have given it to you

But if you should break it

I don't know what I'll do

My heart is open

It's placed in your care

Please cherish and love it

Don't let it grow cold or bare

My heart is open

It now belongs to you

Just treasure it always

And show me that you love me too

Behind Blue Eyes

Behind blue eyes

Tears will fall

Sadness outshines joy

But that's not all...

Behind blue eyes

Joy will show

When the tears stop

What more do you know?

Behind blue eyes

A girl will stand strong

Even though she's broken

Is that so wrong?

Behind blue eyes

The girl will love you

Even on the darkest days

As long as you remain true.

Can You?

Can you truly say you know me

When you haven't been in my shoes?

Do you know the pain I've been in 

Or how happiness fades to the blues?

Can you truly say you know me

When all you do is judge me now?

Who made you the boss of me

Why me? What did I do to you and how?

Can you truly say you know me

When you don't know what makes me tick?

I'd love for you to walk a mile in my shoes

Then I wonder if all your hating of me will stick!

Heart

Heart... black as coal

Hardened with hate

Unable to feel love

But is it too late?

Heart... black as night

Shielded from pain

Protected from love

But what is to gain?

Heart... black as sin

Finally feeling glory

A love slowly came in

And that's my story

When You Tear Me Down...

When you tear me down do you not see?

I am still here standing strong even through tears

I will rise above of all your hate and bullying

Even though I still have many many fears

When you tear me down do you not see?

I stand here sometimes with friends sometimes alone

But I get right back up no matter how much you push

Because I have something you lack... a backbone

When you tear me down do you not see?

I may be hurt and feel like the world is at an end

But I will come back because I am a fighter

And that's the message to my bullies I want to send!

I Wish

I wish you could see me now

I wish you could see my pain

I wish you could see my tears

But when you hurt me, what did you gain?

I wish you could know how it feels

I wish that karma would get you too

I wish you would finally understand

But for some reason I doubt it'll happen to you

I wish you could see how I changed 

Because of what you turned me into 

Because of all of your bullying and hate

I used to be so trusting and loving too

I wish so many things...

But they'll never come to pass

Because bullies always win 

And me... I'm just a stupid Irish lass

Aroma of the Season

The aroma in the air reminds me

That snow will soon come to fall

Neighbor's houses all adorned with lights

And you can hear carols at the mall

There's a special kind of excitement

Shared by those young and old

A feeling that you wish will never go away

Even though the air is so crisp and cold

The colorful lights and beautiful bulbs

Adorned on every house, every porch

No matter where you look you see them

It's like there's a new life, like the fire to the torch

The aroma of fresh baked cookies

And cinnamon from each and every store

All the festive fun things bring me joy

But it means family and so much more

Some may think this is all too commercial

But me, I see the joy in all the faces around me

How happy people are greeting one another

And how there's no race or creed, it's love we see

When I First Saw You

It wasn't by the moon that I saw your face

When I first thought you were a fantasy 

It was by the sunlight bright and cheerful 

But I swear it was you that I saw near me

I saw you standing there so tall and handsome

You looked like some kind of Angel, but that can't be

You looked over at me fleetingly and smiled 

And that's when I knew my heart was no longer free

I smiled back but I know I must of been blushing 

Because I felt that heat in my cheeks too

Oh I must of looked like a wreck in your eyes

But I knew then that my heart belongs to you

It wasn't by the moon that I saw your face

No it was the sun that showed me you

I couldn't be happier to know that you're mine

And knowing that you'll love me forever too

You're Always There

In a world full of such chaos

You are always there for me

With all this hate and ignorance

You've always been able to help me see

Nothing could ever make my days go dark

When I know it's you that holds my heart

Nothing could ever make me stop loving you

And nothing, not a thing could ever tear us apart

In this dark chaotic and hectic world

I know you will always be there

I know you'll always love me

And that you'll forever and always care!

Our Stories

Our stories are not written yet

For they continue with each turning page

From birth to the present day 

The story goes on with a rage

The chapters of our lives are unwritten 

Still to be discovered for time will tell 

Each page is new, a story untold 

And so much more to our lives as well

Alone in the Dark

I often sit alone in the dark...

Thinking about how I got to this place.

Why did I have to go through a living hell,

Just to get this huge slap in my face?

Don't I deserve to be happy,

To finally be free of all of this pain?

Don't I deserve to be loved,

With a long life hopefully to gain?

I often sit alone in the dark...

With thoughts raging in my mind, 

Wanting to break free of these chains

And find someone who's loving and kind!

I Am Not

I am not your stepping stone

I am not your punching bag 

I am strong and I will fight back

Stop treating me like some hag!

I am not someone you can tear apart

I am not someone that you can break

I do have a heart and I do feel 

And that's where you made your Mistake

You think it's funny to trash someone?

You think it's funny to bully and condemn?

You think you're all that and so much more?

I'm just so glad I'm not a part of them! 

I don't care what your reasons are

But when you bully what is there to gain?

How would you feel if you were in my shoes?

But then it would just happen all over again

I am not your stepping stone

I deserve to be treated better than this

So stop treating me like a piece of shit

If you stopped hating what would you miss?

Stand Up For Yourself

There comes a time when you need to stand up for yourself

You need to say "Enough is Enough" and stand strong

You need to now allow those bullies to tear you down 

And remember you matter, your deserve happiness, you belong

You have to try to forget the words of those deceitful liars

And not let what they do or say ruin who you are

You have to be brave, stand strong, and fight back

And remember to not allow the bullying to go far

Sitting Here

Sitting here while my heart breaks

Wondering if you care at all

Sitting here crying in the dark 

I wonder if you'd even hear me call

Sitting here wondering why it hurts

And wishing that I could have a heart of stone

Then I wouldn't have to be so torn apart

When I find myself sitting in the dark all alone