Seeds of Doubt

Seeds of doubt planted in my head 

All because of the bullying that I dread

All  this fear is because of him

Did he plan this or was it all on a whim?

He bashed me, bullied me, treated me like shit

And for what? That's the thing I don't get

Seeds of doubt planted in my head

I used to be open but now I'm closed off instead

I'm afraid of those around me and what they think

All this stress, this hate, this fear... well it stinks

I'm trying to be the person that I once was

But the fear is planted... I'm a lost cause

Seeds of doubt planted in my head

My heart feels heavy like it's made of lead

Wonder if I'll ever regain my trust again

Will I be the woman I once was, full of zen?