She Walks...

She walks in beauty

As the starry night

Wishing to find him

For he is her light

She walks in grace

As serene as a dove

Wishing to hold him

And show him her love

She walks in silence 

So quiet and still 

Looking for him 

For that is her will

Dying Slowly Inside

Dying slowly inside
Drowning but not
This is depression
I don't feel so hot

Putting on a fake smile
Trying to be glad
But slowly failing
Because truthfully I'm sad

I don't want to feel this
All this pain inside
I want to feel more
I hope this will subside

Dying slowly inside
But not wanting to show it
Pretending to be happy
When all I feel is shit!

Depression (Haiku)

I am lost today

Drowning in a sea of pain

This is depression

I can't find myself

Because depression has me

I am in the dark

How do I get out

And save myself from drowning

From depression's grip

He (Haiku)

He is so handsome

He tells me that he isn't

But to me he is

He is my soulmate

And I will love him always

I have promised him

He is my whole world

He is my reason to be 

I am lost to him

He is my true love

My Dark Angel and much more

I love him so much

I Am Not Pretty (Haiku)

I am not pretty

But I wish that I could be

Sadly I cannot

I am not pretty

It is something too far off

That I cannot be

Lost My Will (Haiku)

I have lost my will 

Writing Haiku's can be fun

But annoying too

I have lost my will

I can't think of what to write 

My brain has shut down

I have lost my will 

Having a writer's block sucks

But I will survive

I Love You (Haiku)

I love you so much

You are the one I adore

Forever my love

Always in my heart

Forever in my soul too 

I love you always

She (Haiku)

She is a sweet soul 

Her heart has a lot of love 

She is always kind

Me (Haiku)

I am a poet

My name is Annastasia 

I am what you see

I am an artist

I love to draw and paint too

Whatever I see

My heart is open 

It will get broken a lot 

But it will heal too

Forever

I wish to be his forever

To have and to hold 

To love and to cherish

Or so I have been told

I want to be his only girl

The one he'll always love

To hold me and to love me

Snuggle together like a glove

I promise to love him for always

I will cherish every day and night

To love him from here to eternity

For he is the dark and I am his light

I wish to always belong to him

And I know he wishes the same

For he will love and adore me

I can tell when I hear him say my name

His Eyes

His brown eyes have me under his spell,

Deepest darkest abyss that he knows so well.

Sweet sad eyes that have me in a trance,

With hopes that he'll look my way by chance.

His brown eyes are dreamy pools of java,

When I look at them I feel hotter than lava .

When I look at his eyes I can't help but fall,

Then I sink to the ground, why do I feel so small?

I can't help but stare into his eyes so dark,

They seem to bare into my soul so stark.

Why do I find myself under his dark spell?

But it's his love for me that his eyes do tell.

His brown eyes, oh how I find I can't resist, 

The draw me in, but there is more I can list!

My Poems

My poems are becoming repetitive

I'm running out of things to say

It's like my thoughts are all jumbled up

And my mind is nothing more than clay

My poems seem to be the same theme

Things that I have already said

Of love and hate, sadness and happiness

And of this life now and feelings of dread

My poems always come back to me

My thoughts and feelings and more

Things I have and have not said

And my life and what's in my heart's core

My poems are becoming repetitive

I know I have already said this before

But my poems are my legacy of my life

And my future of a love and so much more

Happy New Year

Another year has come and gone

Memories both good and bad too

Mistakes have been made I'm sure

But so have triumphs in all that we do

A year full of smiles and frowns

Anger and joy and so much more

Memories will be made this year too

So much for this new year is in store

Another year has come and gone

Some friends have come and gone too

But the memory of everything will last

And those that remain are the ones who are true

So here's to hoping this year will be better

With many lessons to be learned every day

So much to look forward to in this year

Happy New Year, what more can I say?

I Don't Want to Feel This Way

I don't want to feel this way anymore

I don't want to feel anything

I'm tired of always getting hurt

And not being able to feel my heart sing

I don't want to always hurt when I feel

I should feel love and not feel pain

But my pride and heart get in the way

And I keep wondering what I have to gain

I don't want to be second best anymore

I want to be important, to be number one

But that's selfish and I shouldn't feel that

I want to feel love, happiness, and much fun